Singapore Federation of Annie Yong Fan Club (AYFC)

2012-02-09T00:51:00.001+08:00

Maybe no one told you there is strength in your tears
And so you fight to keep from pouring out
But what if you unlock the gate that keeps your secret soul
Do you think that there's enough that you would drown?

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

No one can tell you where you alone must go
There's no telling what you will find there
And, God, I know the fear that eats away at your bones
Screaming every step, "Just stay here"

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If you find your fists are raw and red from beating yourself down
If your legs have given out under the weight
If you find you've been settling for a world of gray
So you wouldn't have to face down your own hate

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still

If no one will listen
If you decide to speak
If no one's left standing after the bombs explode
If no one wants to look at you
For what you really are
I will be here still
I will be here still

2012-02-06T19:59:00.002+08:00

turns out, my prof has not read my work

i am really scared

very depressed

its just never going to go my way, is it?

IE4100R A

IE3100R A-

IE4220 A-

just never going to be good enough, am i

and why am i comparing myself with guanwei?

he's how zai can

STOP IT

just do your work and pray for the best

because good is not enough anymore

you need to be the best

more depressing days ahead

2012-02-02T00:05:00.003+08:00

aaron asked me to apply FOE Innovation and Research Award .

should I do it or not?

anyway, what a joyful few days

about time considering all the shit I have gone thru

(something u won't see very often in this site)

2012-01-31T04:26:00.002+08:00

im so tired

im so scared

i really want to get 2ndUpper

i really really want

im worried for sdp

im worried for fyp

im dead if aaron don't like what i did and give me a B+

im dead

im so tired but cannot sleep

i miss annie yong

i miss shujia

and oh, i got into dean's list

2012-01-15T19:35:00.001+08:00

On this day of your life, Xin Qian, we believe God wants you to know ... that you do not see things as they are. You see them as you are.

When you look, you see reflections of your being. When you listen, you hear echoes of yourself. If you don't like something about what you see and hear, no point in smashing the mirror, change who you are becoming.

LIFE SUCKS. I WANT TO GO BACK TO SWEDEN.

2012-01-12T20:49:00.000+08:00

it's good to be rich, isn't it?

just spend on wii without batting an eyelid.

sidenote: i love working alone

2012

2012-01-12T01:46:00.002+08:00

2011 was an awesome year for me. mainly because of exchange.

12 days into the new year.

i'm emo already.

she got b b- b- and her cap is still higher than me

life's unfair

pple have so much money

life's unfair

din get qpm but scm instead

but i'll try my best

IE4100R A

IE3100R A-

IE4220 A-

i can do this

scm is going to be difficult

im scared

my so not motivated for my fyp

mom is not replying

im worried

i need A for fyp because i probably cannot get a- for scm

im really scared

but i feel that there is really nothing much i can do now

only to really do well for scm

and continue doing fyp and sdp properly

and its all in His hands

i can only try my best

what aaron and tmk wants to give me is really beyond my control

i'll try my best

really that is all i can do now

need to get back into my ultra pia mode

NEED

i miss God

i miss talking to Him

i miss feeling Him by my side everyday

why did things turn out this way

is my faith in myself or God?

God, please. 2ndupper.

i really will not be able to take it if i dun get

because of the unfortunate groupmates

mixing myself with the 'wrong' group of pple

its not fair

why din i do project with yk, ch, dt, jm in the earlier years

its not fair that someone never code at all but get A+

its really really not fair

but life is unfair

there is nothing you can do

suck thumb

*what a great conclusion*

2011-12-20T17:57:00.002+08:00

IE4240 A

ACC1002X A-

CE2184 A

SAP: 4.83

CAP: 3.87

this is what i got

so i guess its a good sem

pissed about acc but aiya

nothing in my life really really went as plan

so im quite ok with it

and this sem i worked hard

harder than other sems although i have less modules this time

so well, im at peace with it

still stressed

but ya, its a good step forward i guess

thank you, Jesus

now the best scenario is

IE4100 A

IE3100 B+

QPM A

IE4100 A

IE3100 A-

QPM A-

yup, need for FYP, i believe its possible

ROAR, 2ndUpper, i will get you!

2011-12-15T06:39:00.001+08:00

I have never been this scared about this.

Please God, don't let the sponsorship situation happen again.

2011-12-11T22:41:00.002+08:00

there is just this sense of emptiness

I dun have any thing other than my studies

No true friends who I can share my deepest feelings to

no one really knows me

I am such a terrible friend

So why would anyone wants to be close to me?

I just feel very empty

2011-12-01T00:10:00.003+08:00

I refuse to let myself feel anything

I can only feel sian or motivated now

Nothing else

I am void of emotions

I only have feelings about work now

I am emotionally shutdown

I guess I choose it that way

I don't want to care

I just want to study

I just want my second upper

That is all that I want

I don't need/want friends

I don't need/want 'love'

I just want my second upper

I think love is overrated

I think love is temporary

But grades are forever

No one will 'love' me anyway

I love being alone

Travelling alone really does make you more confident about your decisions

think of things

I love being alone

I cannot wait to move out of this place

Maybe that's why I like to drink so much now

To feel something, so feel my heart beating

To know that it's still beating

To know I'm still alive

To know I still have a 'heart' to feel

Maybe that is why

借酒消愁

I guess I finally know what that means

I want my second upper

I really really do

2011-11-30T16:02:00.000+08:00

so the sem is over

but i can only comment on it when the results come out

I CAN DO THIS

2011-11-21T15:54:00.000+08:00

because I have to

what if I don't make it?

2011-11-13T18:14:00.000+08:00

last day of (lessons) of Year 4 sem 1

2011-11-11T23:01:00.002+08:00

wow how fast time has passed

started this blog 4 years ago out of some madness

felt emo about my shitty first cap

and now its year 4 alr

how fast time has passed indeed

i need to mug

i can do it

i love being alone

i dun want to care

please, make me heartless

life sucks

today is also 4 months since i came back

i miss europe

i will go back

i can get 4.00

i will make it

please, let me make it

im scared

like so much work to do for fyp

should i do internship

haha i think that will depend on my grades

really

and my fyp progress

we will see

a&b how?

today is also 11.11.11

may 2011 be truly be the best year yet

2011-11-03T22:57:00.002+08:00

birthday on monday

not a very happy day but whatever

its just a day anyway

what do i have to show after 22 years of living?

nothing

first exam in 2 weeks

finish in 3

really need to focus now

cannot slack

and need to stop eating

roar

bloody emo

i need to get all A this sem

very scared

last 3 weeks chiong chiong chiong

i can do it

2011-10-29T22:39:00.003+08:00

my fyp is at a freaking standstill

i don't know what to do next

no inspiration

no ideas

no motivation

the meeting with mom kinda confuse things for me

roar need to get it together before i lose all my lead and others catch up with me

ROAR

but im so slack now

need to get it together

ROAR work work work

please stop slacking (and eating) and work

remember your goal

remember your drive at the beginning of sem

remember the promise to yourself, to slog till you get it

stop being complacent

remember how that attitude practically ruin your whole uni life

IE4240 A-

CE2184 A

ACC1002X A

CAP: 3.939

IE4100 A-

IE3100 A-

TE B+

CAP: 4.00

i can do this

stop slacking

some are just destine for mediocracy

2011-10-25T00:24:00.002+08:00

God, where are you?

2011-10-24T23:31:00.002+08:00

I am bitter because life is unfair

I cannot accept it

why is it that because I am more hardworking but I do worse than others

why am I stupid

why am I stupider than other people

why am I not from hwa chong or rj

why am I born stupid

why can't I work harder

really, why do I care so much

why can't I just chillax

Caring makes things so much harder

I want to don't care

I want to be smarter

Heck, I want to have higher self esteem

Not this fat stupid tomboy

My self esteem is really unhealthily low

that's why I always feel that I don't deserve anything good unless I work really had for it

Side note: I really need to focus. No more grey's anatomy craziness anymore

Haven't felt happy in a long time

Is joy overrated?

Do one really need happiness to go on?

I need a break

I hate myself for caring for being bitter for being stupid for being fat for being poor for being poor

I want to be a simple unambitious girly girl.

Just a normal person with small dreams like being a wife.

I want to be simple.

so tired

2011-10-19T20:56:00.002+08:00

of trying to be adequate

2011-10-18T21:04:00.002+08:00

suddenly have this sinking feeling

like my heart is very heavy

i dunno why

listening to 'someone like you' doesn't help

and feel like crying

try so hard for you huh

not like you will ever get a good grade

people will just look at you, knowing you are stupid

when will i ever be good enough

will i ever get 2ndUpper?

3.18

3.62

3.88

4.12

4.00

got screwed in the 1st sem

asia conference screwed me

will i ever recover from 3.18?

i need 4.67 this semester

i know i deserve it

but im stupid

hard work doesn't help in uni

IE4240 B+

ACC1002X A

CE2184 A

IE4100 A-

IE3100 B+

TE A-

i need these

will i get this

7 months later, i'll know

i deserve it for my hard work

but im stupid

i want to be able to graduate with my head held high

i don't think i will ever be happy without my 2ndupper

why am i so superficial

why do i need grades to show myself

because i have a low self esteem

i need to hide behind a front

an 'achievement'

a scholarship

a staff sergeant rank

all my life, i've been hiding

behind a tomboy image

behind my np achievement, my np rank

behind my As in jc

behind my policewoman image in uni

i have never felt adequate

perhaps the only time i felt adequate was after i got my scholarship

became complacent

and look how that ended-3.18

and i fell into the hole again

pple say pple have different talent and abilities

i dun seem to have any

from young i was told i am stupid

and yes, i am.

i hate myself

because life is unfair

2011-10-06T21:43:00.002+08:00

it sucks

2011-10-02T16:28:00.002+08:00

back for the 2nd time in a week, guess im really quite emo huh..

life just sucks doesn't it

when you things ever go your way?

what should i do with A&B?

i really want to get 2nd Upper

trying hard

hope this big plan of mine won't fail

like the last one

so emo that im lazy to write anything emo

i believe i will get 2ndUpper

i believe i will get back to Him again

i believe i will be back to write some random shit again

because You came, I'm taken out of misery

2011-09-25T20:10:00.002+08:00

din post at all during or about exchange but whatever

i hate myself

i hate my life

so many regrets in my life

when would it become easier

why din i go overseas

why din i score better in year 1

why din i score better in year 2

why din i score better in year 3

why ain't i smarter

why din i apply for overseas scholarship

why am i born in this family

why can't i be richer

why am i so results oriented

why am i so stupid

why am i fat

why am i short

why am i do superficial

why am i so judgemental

why dont i have more friends

why do i want more friends

why am i always so inadequate in everything

why am i so not self-content

why am i so not easily satisfied

why dont i have more faith

why dont i have a cell grp

why am so hard to get close

am i so hard to get close

why cant i be more heck care

i hate my life

please, come and remind me who You are

2010-12-09T03:03:00.001+08:00

the day when i openly say i have faith in the 'final' verdict, it came bad negative.

Why are You doing this to me?

Year 3 Semester 1 / 2010

2010-12-08T02:44:00.002+08:00

well hi invisible friends who are reading this.. im back!

the main reason im back is that i want to use this as my sep blog

and i really have quite alot of thoughts this semester/year

so lets get started shall we?

sigh

2010 has been a better year for me i guess

got above 4 for sem 4 and that pulled up my cap quite abit..

but i have to say year 2 sem 2 has been the toughest sem up till now..

tons of projects, assignments and exams with 6 modules, 5 of them core..

but well i think i work harder and better under pressure and that was the semester that gave me my long awaited above 4

but its still not good enough YET

need to get 4.4 for the remaining 3 sems to get 4.0 eventually

not easy i know

but i still have faith.. more on that word later

then after the toughest sem

came internship at mom

can't exactly say its the best experience ever

it was quite torturous to wake up every morning, squeeze in the train

and go to work to do something (if anything at all) u do not like at all

and it makes me hope that i would nv lose my passion for my job

i really do not want to be one of those paper pushers in the public sector just waiting to get the retirement money

Lord, i pray that i would not lose the purpose you have place in me.

and it was during the internship/holidays when i started thinking alot about friends

i think i live a sad life, and its no one's fault but myself

during the hols, i only saw 4 of my uni friends

and had 1 outing with jc class

nothing with sec sch which are just my np friends

and the uni friends meeting are mostly superficial

maybe cos i find social activities now very tiring

its so tiring to socialise, talk cock.. really tiring

then i realised i do not really have real friends who im totally open to..

maybe except for loser..

i think she is the one who knows me the best cos im really quite open to her with regards to my feelings .. as open as she is to me

but that friendship has been so strained..

which was why i was so surprised when she gave me a bday present.. more on that later

it was also during the holidays when i had the home team attachment team

when i got the bombshell that i will not be sponsored for my sep cos i do not have 4 and above

those were like low times when self-worth was questioned daily

especially when you meet with pple from imperial and cambridge boosting about their travel experience and how they are going for their masters

when you cannot even get sponsored for sep

a glimpse of hope came when someone from our batch was sponsored when she did not get above 4 and the director of manpower promised to fight for us

but that fight eventually came down to nothing

when that 'final' verdict came, school had already started

and that night i cried like nobody's business

all the self-doubt, feelings of inadequacy came rushing and crashing me

but God nv fail to pick me up

i din dare to tell anyone that

and kept it to myself for like 1month

until my mum asked and i couldnt lie anymore

and that was went God tells me that its not over yet

my mum told me we can try appealing to the MP in my grc

so in nov we went

the final verdict is not out yet but im having faith

during the holidays, the city harvest scandal came out

for the record, i have complete faith in Pst Kong and Sun and the management

i am 100000% sure that Pst Kong, Sun, Pst Tan did not embezzle the pple's money for their 'luxurious' lifestyle

thats if you are like wanbao who thinks that a 40+ year old man owning one (and only one) condo in river valley is considered a luxurious lifestyle

come on, if its a random guy, a professional having a masters degree, one would not look twice if he owns a condo in orchard

and because it is a pastor, he has to live in a shabby house? come on he has his own business after all

plus did you guys check out his car? its a honda not bmw or merz

seriously speechless at the media

especially wanbao whose audience are lower to lower middle class singaporeans who would think that owning a 2.7 million condo is considered splurging..

sigh but whatever, we will come out stronger than before

i have no doubt about it..

well its a long post..

i shall continue tmr...

- loser monster

2009

2010-01-01T00:23:00.002+08:00

i won't exactly say 2009 is the best year for me yet

i started the year with a really shitty CAP

striving that sem2 will be better

well it did turn out much better

but not good enough

and i have accepted the fact that i'll probably be never good enough

feb, can't rmb anything significant happen

maybe just chinese new year

studying hard probably

working hard for openhouse 09

my first pru project ever

mar, openhouse

mid terms

really can't rmb march (haha pun intended)

april

final exams

easter production

actually din want to be a part of it cos i wanted to study

but we are not hiring anyone else for our main svc for easter

so full support from ministry members needed

so well, God has his divine ways

did easter drama for chinese church

was really stressed cos pple like to highlight the fact its my first time

well i like to think i did quite well

i hope i made a difference in someone else' easter

i hope someone was touched by the easter production that i was a part of

may

diving i think

results came out

did better

but obviously not enough

can't rmb much

jun

did projects- matric fair and rag

jul

matric fair and rag

well i can't say i was busy with those projects

cos i had a terrible experience working with those pple

the worst experience i had working in a team

really sucked

asian youth games

aug

rag

got offended with henry

school started

got ourselves with the buzz of school and life

stupid rat race

chasing for a piece of paper

sept

got myself a room in rvr

started seeking God more regularly

buzz of school

tutorials after tutorials

lectures after lectures

basically work after work

routine life

really stop attending cgm in sept

really lost the conviction or faith that cgm is not going to be a waste of time

sigh and there goes any of my very minimum church pple interaction

oct

school projects

turned 20

din celebrate at all

3 cakes- brownie from munchy monkey from my forensic science friends

cake from my cg friends which i avoided like mad

and from ise friends who kind of celebrate for me after our cs practical exam

haha they got me a blue power ranger cake and described it as something i'll like very much

haha yes, thanks guys

2 presents- both i din really like

but well thanks for the effort for going to buy

more for my light friends cos they actually got it outside attributes unlike my cg friends

well wad can i expect? do onto others wad u want others to do onto u

seriously those were the 2 things i got were .... not the things i'll get myself

told you that i hide my personality pretty well

only few pple know me

notice nothing came from my family

maybe a 20 bucks hongbao from my grandfather which my mum have not gave it to me

and a very cute card from my little sister

nothing from my parents

yes, im bitter

wad happen to happy birthdays?

nov

usual mugging for exams

really tough times that God brought me thru

feeling of lost, of inadequacy, of hopelessness

really broke down and cry many times

dunno why must i go thru all that

ya to strengthen me

like job, God allowed it

i would say i came out victorious

loving God even more

dec

hongkong

got the revelation from disneyland

that disneyland was all about dreams, hope, courage,love

that dreams can come true if we have the courage to go for them

the huge fight with my mother

why must i be the one who always take a step back?

why? just because i dun want to make things ugly in the house?

well i went all out this time

really had enough

seriously

thank God for the very busy and tiring Christmas week

when i can go out of house everyday before sunrise and come home after sunset

but it was really tiring

i realized that after every big production, i will tell myself that i dun want to involve in the next one just cos i want to rest

but well God has His divine ways

this year really isn't great for me

but God has remain faithful in all times

have never ever fail me

as i walk in faith and believing that God knows the plans He has for me

He have never let me down

and He never will

still holding on Him for all the things thats happening and is going to happen

looking forward to the new decade

im turning 21!

and 30 at the end of the decade!

this decade will be one with alot of changes

the decade that most of the pple around me and of course me will step into the real working world

its scary but well, its all part of life

may it be a great decade ahead

University Year 2 Semster 1

2009-12-05T04:57:00.002+08:00

yesterday was the last day of the the sem

but i have been sleeping at 7 in the morning and waking up at 3 in the afternoon, so its still my friday

this is the fastest sem of the 3

maybe its because i felt that it was the best sem of the 3

results ain't out yet, so i dun want to slap myself later for doing terrible

but im always full of hope

isn't hope the thing that make us wake up every morning and force ourselves thru the motions of life?

so i will never cease to hope

for without hope for a better next sem, many engin students, or maybe just my friends, would have given up and die

so never give up xinqian

rmb Jer 29:11, Pro 3:5, Hab 3:17-19 and many more

proclaim the promises

so anyway

sem3 tough modules

but somehow i thought i managed to stay consistent

consistently managed to know what's happening

HOPEFULLY i improved

my bitter friends and i have been talking alot about engine vs other faculties

yes, we are a bunch of bitter people who are not doing well

at least not well according to our own expectations or A levels (which kind of determine of expectations)

its really kind of sad

sad that you slog 12 years of your life to get into a good course

only to do so terrible according to the beloved curve

when you hear and see how your friends from other faculties work less hard than you but is doing so much better

i know im offending tons of pple with what i just said

but pple who knows me knows that im not a slacker and work hard to do well

at least my hard work was enough to earn me reasonably good results in A's

but its obviously not enough in uni

like i said before: never good enough, always inadequate

we always console ourselves saying that the bachelor of engine is a professional degree and engineers' pay is the highest amongst the rest

but seriously, will u hire a 3rd class engine or a 1st class econs ?

i really dunno man

sigh, not trying to be arrogant, im really glad that i applied and gotten the scholarship

at least i got it when my hard work was still enough for me to do well

but it does gives me additional pressure to do well because of all the rank and starting pay shit

sigh, im starting to take more things to stride now

accepting the fact that some things are really beyond me and i perhaps, is really never good enough to do well now

afterall, i know im not intelligent, just a little more hard working, i like to say

sigh

on another note, i really despise incompetent pple

pple who make a mess out of things

pple who can organise things properly

pple who just can do things properly

so i really hate projects sometimes, maybe all the times

have to clean up pple's work

when everyone will get the same marks

well, who ask me to care about my grades more than pple

and pple know there's always someone to clean up the mess for them

sometimes, i really hate myeslf for that

for caring too much

have been watching csi like mad recently

planning to finish up the 9 seasons

csi really highlights the fragility of life

how easy one can die

and how we all look the same when the forensic pathologist open you up to examine you

no matter whether u are a 3rd class engine or 1st class econs

you are the same inside

and i love the csi drama among the main characters

not too much but enough for me

watching from season1, you can really see the character development

how they grow and change from the experience of the cases

watching csi is already beyond the cases and the police work

and those are entertaining enough

add those drama and character development, perfect entertainment

anyway

thru all these, He is so real

so Present in every time of need or desperation

man can fail us, but He never ever will

and i stand in awe of how He died for me after all my wrongdoings, flaws and disappointing Him time and time again

'I was thinking about you, xinqian, when I was on the Christ.'

what else can i say other than that im so undeserved of the greatest love that was ever present on the face of the earth

I love Him, period.

HAPPY BIG 2 BIRTHDAY TO ME :D

2009-10-31T01:34:00.001+08:00

2009-10-20T01:33:00.002+08:00

hasn't been here for more than a month

in this month, im slowly losing all my drive to study

especially last week and today

which led me to chance upon a secret

a open secret i would say

have been thinking about life, education and all

with the recent hype about SEP

i remembered my passion when i first started my uni life

sigh

all is long gone and forgotten by the paper chase

the reason why i want to go sep is that i want to maximum the programmes available to us

uni is really the last stage of education

the last time we can do things without thinking too much

without thinking pple saying we are being irresponsible etc

at the end of 4 years, i do not just want to remember the shitty computing labs

stupid wang guan li, our lectures in LT 2, mugging in ibm lab

i want to remember the friendships bonded(i have already lost my sec and jc friends.. dun want to lose it again)

thats why i keep saying pple pangseh.. sigh

its always about the people, not about the activity

the times we laughed together

the times we despair together

the times we mug together

the times we complain about life together

i want to remember the things i have done beside studying

organising openhouse, matric fair, rag

going for internships

the places i went during SEP

the troublesome module mapping

the excitement of going to SEP together with friends

seriously, i dun need a damn resume at all since im probably going to stay in my 1st job until they retrench me

its really the NUS experience

the SEP experience

i really dun want at on commencement day

wearing the mortarboard and the gown

holding the scroll

and i realized that i only have the scroll

and the only flashbacks i have are of mugging

of chiong-ing for lectures seats

really is that what we all want out of uni?

make use of the opportunity of carefree life now

before the serious stuff really starts

live life to the fullest and i certainly dun mean getting all A's

(so what if we have all the A's and your character is shit like hell

your attitude is screwed like mad)

and dun have any regrets wad so ever

sigh

i realized that i really miss annie yong

her counselling

her words of wisdom

you can always count on her for statements like:

studies is not everything, character is

go experience life before you really start working

(and most significantly) only you and you alone are responsible for your own life and what you make of it

missing her,

monster

2009-09-07T21:35:00.001+08:00

never good enough
inadequacy

-depressed

2009-09-01T14:48:00.002+08:00

thats what friends are for?

whats the that?!

im never one who has many friends
maybe many acquintances since i talk so much and irritate so many pple
but close friends? not many. just lost 1 recently

i dun really tell pple the secrets in my heart
my true thoughts
im always the one talking rubbish, trying to be funny
deep inside? no one really knows

maybe im not used to revealing too much to others, coming from a traditional chinese family
expressing of care and concern is nv thru words

but i do enjoy being alone
reading, watch tv, play com
talking to myself is a habit
actually everyone talk to themselves with thoughts
just that i actually speak it out softly to myself
as weird as it seems, i enjoy it
it provokes thought
i love being alone
friends are perhaps just to escape from the title 'loner'

anyway my interpersonal relationship is so bad
i dun believe in superficial relationship
hi bye friends
so i seldom smile to pple when i see them walk pass me
i rather have no friend if they are superficial
which is why i hate social activities when im so tired
need to make superficial conversation
and when i have a group of friends who i think i can keep close to, i try to bind them as tightly as possible
perhaps over obessive

once again, i love being alone
why do i need company?
i dunno
i really appreciate true friends

2009-08-15T12:21:00.000+08:00

university is a very humbling experience
you meet pple who are way way smarter than you
and u will always wonder what is in their brain
but the pride in me just refuse to let me admit that im stupid
cos im supposed to be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath
but here's the catch
Deut 28:13 - And the Lord will make you the head and not the tail; you shall be above only and not be beneath, IF you heed the commandments of the Lord your God, which I command today..

now for less serious stuff
rag has been a terrible experience
one of the worst coms i have been in
the rag head simply keeps everything to himself
so he's damn busy and we are all scratching our heads and slacking
sigh
to think that he's a army regular
he should know teamwork more than any other essential attributes
sigh

finally its time to study again
kind of excited
kind of scared
im worried that it will all end the same
at recess week, i will feel damn depressed that i dun know anything at all
i will try not to let this happen again

Deut 28:13

2009-07-19T23:28:00.002+08:00

just watched harry potter and the goblet of fire.
got some enlightenment that harry potter is really a book about love
and its biblical references

like how voldemort wanted power, which was given by the One, for himself
how he wanted to be the 'Lord'
how he wanted glory
how he uses his awesome talents in the wrong way

yet harry potter overcome everything thru love
thats the difference between him and voldemort
harry potter overcome everything thru his parents' love, thru friendship
something evident in every book
how he draw strength from his parents, thru support from friends

and more bibical reference, how harry potter's parents sacrifice for him
how they were willing to die to protect harry

'Having faith, hope and love; of which LOVE is the greatest.'

2009-07-17T02:22:00.002+08:00

well
life hasn't been excellent
tiring

why am i here?
doing real stupidly useless things

seriously broke

i geniunely hate social activities after a while
very tiring to try to start a conversation
not that i hate my friends
but sometimes, silence is prefered
plus dinners are wallet flattening

i really want to get a room in pgp
i really need the peace and silence
i need rest and refuge from life

i need You

Life

2009-06-19T03:32:00.002+08:00

life
wad's that?
i love freedom
i love lying on my bed, doing whatever i want to do without any qualms
i love the peace
thanks loser for lending me her room to do that
i love slacking

hate meetings
hate checking emails

im tired
despite the 1.5 half month of rest
i want to sleep
but seems like i can't have much rest for the next 1.5 months

ok going to sleep
im tired of living
im tired of life

want to fulfil my purpose
after that, please bring me home

Hols

2009-06-12T00:03:00.002+08:00

1.5 mths left to hols
getting busier as the projects involved are getting closer

anw, results came back on 29 May
i improved, no much but satisfied
hopefully, i'll experience exponential growth

wanted to study in jul
need to get the ttbks
i want to study
i miss studying
and im not lying

anw, i feel im a little elitist
ok maybe not a little
but i really wonder what some pple are doing with their lives
wad kind of future they want

and i really think some pple cannot do things properly
so incompetent
a shout to those pple
if you want me to listen
please be zai
if you are not zai
please pretend convincingly

and i want to be Mary
not Martha
but im so deep into Martha now

ok random post
many things happening in my life now
many thoughts, judgement, emotions

'for I know the plans I have for you; Plans for good not disaster, to give you a future and hope.'

Amen

Year 1

2009-05-09T03:02:00.003+08:00

today is
the end of this semster
the end of year 1
the end of my life as a freshie

thou i finished my exams last thursday, i wanted to wait till to the official last day to do some reflecting

believe sem2 was better than sem1
in terms of results
in terms of familarity with the uni life

but in sem2, there are bad times
relationship tested, failed and strained
integrity tested, failed and guilt
endurance tested, stretched and failed

and there it goes
boom
one quarter, 25% of my uni life is over
time flies too fast
its really fast
last sem seems like yesterday
A levels seems like last week
O levels seems like last month

gone were the days when we have fun together
gone gone gone
our relationship is so strain isn't it?
we dun even talk on msn
and loser & i ....
takes 2 years to build relationship
and 2 sems to break it
im sad

and i feel old
20 20 20 20 20 20 20 20 20 20
yet im still so childish
so playful
so lack of discipline
so lack of wisdom
next year
we are supposed to be the damn zai year 2
but am i?

im sad
i think i have a sad life

spiritually, im a goner
wad more can i say.

just feel so ...
i dunno how to express with words

3 months break
going to waste it off
volunteer for asian youth games
scuba diving
rag
matric fair
engine oweek
spf orientation
basically sums everything up

not looking forward to go back home
afraid of quarreling with my mum again
scolding my sis again

hopefully
i'll be happy in a long long while on 29 may
and i can still have my scholarship
wishfully, hopefully, prayfully

monster

2009-04-25T20:41:00.000+08:00

I am weak
I am a loser
I am stupid
I am a piece of shit
I am dumb
I am an asshole
I am crying

2009-03-29T23:42:00.002+08:00

week 11 starts
1 more month to exams
yet another sem is going to pass
how times fly
still rmb 2 Jan when we met ay for lunch
then, i was full of remorse about my shitty cap
then, i was full of gusto about working hard
and now, i would say im not working hard
its not my max yet
but i need to start work really soon

Pst Phil was great today
'God is going to accelerate the way to the goals that u set, vision that u see, dreams that u dreamt off'
i receive it in faith

'when we the last time you got swept by the holy spirit?'
long long time ago

the mugging begins

2009-03-17T01:04:00.002+08:00

last week was madness....
nus openhouse was bittersweet
its was bloody tiring but fun
the pple are great to work with
the whole thing was made so successful because of all the great pple
but now the mugging period NEEDS to begin
i need to mug
but i dun seems to be doing it

i need to mug

2009-03-07T13:52:00.002+08:00

its has been a year since we got our A level results...
yesterday the 2nd batch of the new syllabus got their results
this batch did better than us - duh
with 202(vs 155) getting more than 3 As
12 with 7 As
40 with 6 As
etc
sb5'08 got 4 pple in the 202
well i would say that sb5'07 is the best sb5 in recent years
we got 11/155 last year
and sb5'06 got 4 pple went upstage
erm why am i not surprised?

as for annie yong's class-sc3, ad1, sb8
the first 2 did 'extremely' well
more than half of ad1 got A for gp but none of them went up stage (hmm) when they used to 'fail big time'
while sb8 did not do so but no one failed so she's abit sad for them
well, annie yong was the jc2 head last year so i wonder the amount of her performance bonus

anw, rj is still the best
1/5 in rj got 7 As (250 vs ac's 12)
wad more do i need to say
can u imagine that
i wonder what's in those pple's brain..

haha we are older already pple
JC4s 20 University Student Young Adult
sometime i wish my brain can grow exponentially with my age

loser (the real loser after losing all my montrous self)

2009-03-02T23:03:00.003+08:00

life has improved a little bit
but not like im very sure that i'll do fabulous this sem but just feeling more comfortable with the modules and feels that they are more managable than previous mods
pple who know me knows that that i chiong for subjects i like and slack like hell for those i dun
last sem i got 2.5 such mods
this sem i dun hate any mods, including my ss which i actually like
but still have to work hard for my ambitious attempt to pull up my cap

and now i got another problem
hall stay
it seems like i dun have enough points for hall stay next sem
the activities that im in like the 2 focc com and engine oweek are considered next sem
which means i gg already
i considered applying as resident assistant in the residents
but deadline is today and i haven't got the required certs, testi scanned
and i really can't fake out things to say under 'wad activities do you proposed for the residents' section
so there it goes
im dead
still trying to think of ways to get some points
erm sian
how?

oh and the NTU stabbing thing
i feel like stabbing myself more than the lecturers
erm i wonder why

monster

2009-02-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

i have a singapore studies test tmr
so im studying it now
but watching the nine o'clock show now so blogging during commercial

i had a singapore studies lect today
it was about singapore's merger and separation from malaysia
the tunku really damn bad to us can..
irritating
anw, we were watching the video of the press conference of LKY's announcement of separation
i witnessed his well-known 'augish' , his controlled tears, his change in voice due to holding back of tears, he stopping the press conference cos he cannot carry on without tearing.
and i actually teared with him
weird as it this, i could feel his disappointment as 'all his adult life, life as a politian,he had believed and worked for a merger. and thats the only way Sg can survive'
i can empathise will his feeling of doom, the feeling of failure for something you have worked so much for
well thats why we can trust PAP more
cos they have undergone the feelings of failure, the pressure to survive
so we can have faith in them that they know wad is good (maybe not be the best) for singapore
cos they are the ones who 'made' singapore land into independence and they feel responsible for our survival

well seems likeim really brainwashed by PAP

2009-02-11T02:46:00.003+08:00

busy busy busy

trying to study very hard

having so many activities

losing my spiritual life badly

miss slacking

appeared on tv on 6 feb 2009

looking forward to NUS openhouse

eagerly waiting for Caring Teacher 2009 Nomination to be out

sort of wanting founder's day to come cos its recess week

want to go for diving trip

need to go running

miss sb5 girls times

can't forget the happy times during NPCC

starting to respect pei joo more

wondering which fishhead is nice cos i promised the Chinese teachers to buy for them on teachers' day

want to see my name on THAT board

feel very stupid

still love God despite everything

Obama's inauguration

2009-01-21T01:03:00.001+08:00

haha im amazingly awake to watch Obama's inauguration ceremony
haha im so apathetic to sg politics yet im doing this
haha so funny

University Year 1 Semester 2

2009-01-12T10:27:00.002+08:00

hey gals!

sem2 started for the nus and even earlier for ntu and smu
here we go again man
and knowing me, i'll look back and exclaim 'How fast time has passed'
one year ago, we were all damn excited to spend the next 7 months slacking, earning money
some of us (ok only me) are bloody excited and looking forward for the release of results
and that day came and went
then it was decision making for uni
orientation camps
and boom uni started with all of us full of gusto and hope
but uni proves itself to be a challenge to many of us and we struggled and kept struggling
but never once did we give up
week after week, tuts after tuts, lects after lects we tried and tried our best
thou some of us din manage to meet our expectation
but we continue to strive towards sem2
cos 'the best is yet to be'
yes indeed the best is yet to be
we can all do than these

well i know its kind of late for a reflection post but here i go
2008 is also a year of much new experiences
working part time, numerous interviews
scuba diving trip, the first trip paid fully by myself
interning in traffic police
yes u all know where i'll go-scholarship
its just an experience going for all those formal functions as, supposedly, a bloody smart and knowledgable person and future leader
and the bloody scary interviews i had to go thru
*pew* scary man
well reward comes with a price i guess
and thru all these, God remains faithful and never break His promises

all in all
despite my horrible cap
2008 had been a great year
with my A level results and scholarship
maturity and friendships strengthened and weakened

2009, receive scholar monster chua
i come once again with gusto and hope
cos The Best is Yet to Be
in Jesus Christ our Lord

on a lighter note, got infor from loser that peijoo is jealous of annie yong
cos loser called peijoo for something
and peijoo was like saying why we never go find her but go have lunch with annie yong
loser said 'somehow XINQIAN manage to get anne yong to treat us'
hello its not me lor
annie yong wanted to treat loser and i tea
but loser wanted to meet u all so she asked annie yong to treat all of us one lor
not me ok
then peijoo say annie yong rich wad
so they talked for ard 30mins cos loser say that peijoo like dun want to put down the phone
and peijoo actually say that if we got anything, we can go find her! how unusual is that!
anw, peijoo knows our ay treat cos ay had to pass loser's card to her
haha so funny
peijoo jealous of annie
so anw, i think we should go meet peijoo or something
cannot so bad to her la
although ay rocks my socks
haha

monster

From Straits Times Forum

2009-01-04T20:00:00.001+08:00

What matters is their quality
IN TIMES like this, the Ministry of Education (MOE) will definitely have no problem recruiting enough teachers. However, this may be a mixed blessing.

We often hear of complaints that the quality of hawker food has deteriorated. When jobs are hard to come by, many who have neither the skill nor the passion for cooking become hawkers.

A similar deterioration in the teaching profession will have far more disastrous consequences. Teachers, like all other human beings, need jobs. But teaching, like nursing and other professions, is more than a job. We have no doubt that, among the recruits, many will become excellent and even indispensable teachers. But still, some worries linger.

The first requirement for a teacher is professionalism. He must know child psychology, pedagogy, classroom management and MOE policies, among other things. These can be obtained from training. But one who is merely professional is at best a teaching technician, not a teacher.

The second requirement is passion. He must be fired up about the subjects he is teaching and itching to imbue his students with the same passion. But one who is professional and passionate is at best a hobbyist. He is still not a teacher.

The most important requirement is to be compassionate. He must love his students and go beyond training them to pass examinations to see them as human beings with the potential for development, although this is easier said than done. So only one who is professional, passionate and compassionate is a true teacher.

There is a Chinese adage: 'A teacher is a model. His every speech and every action are worthy of being examples.' A teacher is more than a celebrity in the entertainment or political world. Very often, he is a parent in fact, if not in name.

If teachers are not well-paid, many who can be teachers choose not to be. If they are well-paid, many who should not be teachers try to be. Let us hope that, among the recruits, there will be many teachers - well-paid teachers, of course.

Ee Teck Ee

Does annie yong fulfil these 3? i think so

HAHA

2008-12-30T00:36:00.001+08:00

Ah Beng bought a new mobile.He sent a message to everyone from his Phone Book & said,’My Mobile No.
Has changed. Earlier it was Nokia 3310. Now it is 6610′
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Ah Beng : I am a Proud, coz my son is in Medical College
.Friend: Really, what is he studying.
Ah Beng: No, he is not studying, they are Studying him.
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Ah Beng : Doctor, in my dreams, I play football every night.
DR: Take this tablet, you will be ok.
Ah Beng : Can I take tomorrow, tonight is final game.
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Ah Beng : If I die, will u remarry?
Wife: No! I’ll stay with my sister. But if I die will u remarry?
Ah Beng : No,I’ll also stay with your sister.
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Ah Beng : People consider me as a ‘GOD’
Wife: How do you know??
Ah Beng : When I went to the Park today, everybody said,Oh GOD! U have come again.
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Ah Beng complained to the police: ‘Sir, all items are missing,except the TV in my house.
‘Police: ‘How the thief did not take TV?’
Ah Beng : ‘I was watching TV news…’
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Ah Beng comes back 2 his car & find a note saying
‘Parking Fine’ He Writes a note and sticks it to a
pole ‘Thanks for complement.’
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How do you recognize Ah Beng in School?He is the one who
erases the notes from the book when the teacher erases the board.
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Once Ah Beng was walking he had a glove on one hand and
not on other.So the man asked him why he did so. He replied
that the weather forecast announced that on one hand it would
be cold and on the other hand it would be hot.
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Ah Beng in a bar and his cellular phone rings. He picks it
up andSays ‘Hello, how did you know I was here?’
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Ah Beng : Why are all these people running?
Man - This is a race, the winner will get the cup.
Ah Beng - If only the winner will get the cup, why others running ================================================

Teacher: ‘I killed a person’ convert this
sentence into future tense
Ah Beng : The future tense is ‘u will go to jail’
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Ah Beng told his servant: ‘Go and water the plants!’
Servant: ‘It’s already raining.
‘Ah Beng : ‘So what? Take an umbrella and go.’
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A man asked Ah Beng why Ahmad Badawi goes walking in the
Evening and not in the morning.
Ah Beng replied Ahmad Badawi is PM not AM

MERRY CHRISTMAS !From Echo (acs termly magazine if u have forgotten)

2008-12-25T18:03:00.003+08:00

"Teachers affect eternity" sums up her passion and love for teaching!

It is not difficult to sense the joy and fulfilment Ms Yong finds in her work. Throughout the interview, she grinned broadly at the mention of her students, and described her time in ACJC as “very, very enjoyable”. When asked to share some of the highlights of her teaching career, she was stumped, but finally professed that she had none as “going to class everyday, seeing students, especially the challenging ones grow and blossom, and becoming better people” was in itself a wonderful experience, and that itself is a highlight.

For someone who has clearly embraced the joys of teaching, one is surprised that teaching never crossed her mind as a student. Though she enjoyed her relief teaching stint after her ‘A’ levels, she let on that she had had other plans.

A Communications graduate, she worked in the advertising industry and at the Civil Service College before embarking on teaching as a career because she felt that life was more than just a mundane routine of a “going to work at nine, knocking off at six, and filing in and out of the MRT.” Realizing the greater sense of purpose and fulfilment teaching could give her, she joined the teaching force thereafter, and has never looked back despite challenges, disappointments and trials.

One of the biggest challenges Ms Yong faces is to try to push students to think independently. She acknowledges that many teachers find it an uphill struggle to wean students off spoon-feeding in lessons, and candidly admits that teaching, despite the delight it can bring, can also be very tiring. However, God had always been her constant source of much-needed courage, strength and wisdom, especially in the moments of disappointment and frustration.

Indeed, for this teacher who earnestly believes that teachers must be a positive influence in their students’ lives, the quote “Teachers affect eternity” is a truly apt motto to live by.

Stephanie Foo & Cara Chiang

2008-12-15T02:44:00.000+08:00

yoyo

byebye

2008-12-04T15:46:00.002+08:00

hey pple
haven't blog for 2 weeks
well not like anyone else is reading

anw exams and post exams are making me busy
exams was terrible
never study finish
have been very distracted by the computer daily
hardly even working hard
post exams is fun
computer all day long
my schedule this few days is
wake up 1200-1400
pack room (needa move out) 1400-1600
play com 1600-0400
sleep 0400-1200

ya totally having a 'night life' now
cos when i go back home next week, my mum won't let me do that ..
so must enjoy and abuse the ultimate freedom a little

but will get down to serious work soon
will plan my timetable for next sem
my sem modules schedule for the 4 years
and read on next sem topics
i vow i will do that.

can't wait for the numerous outings to come
see you guys soon

monster

my humble opinion

2008-11-18T14:27:00.002+08:00

in light of the whole whooha about ac students 'tying and humilating' a girl on her birthday, i am going to share some thoughts.

have been monitoring the asia one forum closely and this is like my favourite post, it totally agree with his points.

Originally Posted by viewpt View Post
Have been following this forum with interest and here are some of my humble comments.

1. I thought that what the P did was correct and that is to counsel the students and to inform them that the way the birthday celebration was carried out may get out of hand. This is what education is all about - teaching them the right way to do things. Would it do the students any good if they are expelled, suspended, caned etc.

I am wondering if your child is the one going to be expelled, what would you say? You will be the first to storm into the P office, request to see your MP, write to the forum that the school should counsel and not carried out corporate punishment - what a contradiction.

2. The alumni or current students replies may be perceived as arrogant. But that may be the respond that we would expect from them due to their love and passion for their college. They may not have done it the right way and this is where the college and possibly how others who have replied to this forum need to work on. Note that quite a number of you who have replied are also perceived to be arrogant.

I would like all of you to think also on how you would respond if Singapore has been attacked by the foreign media. Hope you would stand out for Singapore like what the ACians had done - though the words used could be improved.

3. Next I would like to question on the purpose of the proposed lawsuti by Gibson. I would like to know his actual motive.

Firstly, would it help anyone by pursuing the lawsuit. Time for the P, teachers, students and even parents would be wasted. Hence this would affect the effective learning for the students. Not sure if this would lead to a counter suit by some of the parents against Gibson for causing their children to lost learning time in the classrooms when he has no case.

Secondly, if Gibson is to sue ACJC, he will also have to sue SAJC, NUS, NTU and all other schools for all the "ragging" that have occured for the past few years otherwise he would be seen as not being impartial and his aim is just to discredit ACJC. In other words, he will have to sue MOE as the whole education system may be seen to be at fault. He must also sue the Civil Defence for the "ragging" that have been publicised recently as well. This brings to the fact that in the end, Gibson would have to sue the Singapore Government for not taking care of her citizens welfare.

Lastly, if this forum continues, I am just wondering how are the students involved feeling now. They must be feeling distressed and I do believe the student who had initially posted the video must be scolding himself for that stupid act each day and hoping for all to end soon.

I sincerely hope all you out there will let the unfortunate episode end and let the students start all over again. The college will definitely re-look at how to prevent the issue from happening again.

ok i must clarify i do not totally agree with girls' action
i won't love if im that girl but i won't blow it up
but what i want to defend is ACJC and mrs chan
ppleare like attacking ac and mrs chan like crazy
but its not her fault and i believe her 'mild' reply is just trying to protect the students especially during this A level season
really respect to have the courage to protect the students despite the public scolding her for doing so.
and u all know im very loyal one. so singapore to my alma mater
so im supporting ac all the way cos its not right to generalised acjc just like that
its like please, other schools also have lor.
ths sajc video sadly did not move the attention on ac to sa
but both as bad, Christian school.. sigh
plus i believe this is the ac culture, forgiveness, second chances, love and care despite mistakes. or else loser(oops bullying?) would have been sack by then.

and in the forum, this gibson guy is real serious but suing ac
saying he has 4 strong points and have lots of money to spare
he keep saying look out for the legal battle btw him and acjc in the straits times
real sick guy

and pple are calling for moe to say something
and guess where the minister for education is from? yes anglo-chinese junior college
wonder did he participate in such 'torturing' acts during his times.

ok we will see what happen next
pray that the damage would not be that bad.

monster (i gave myself this name, no bullying involved :D)

exams

2008-11-11T21:10:00.002+08:00

well exams is coming
and i am in a very gg situation
but never mind. Faith

anyway, this post is about annie yong.(like finally!)
our(mine) beloved teacher annie yong ming sy wants to treat us tea cos she really miss all of us and want to chit chat with us
so loser and i are arranging a 'Biologically Female Only Class Outing'
to meet annie yong for tea
she say she will treat us good food!
so please tag ur last day of exams so that we can arrange a date with her
we will have it before 10 dec cos she's going for china immersion
haha imagine her conversing in mandarin
plus she going with mr sim! how scandalous
anw, please tell us ur last exam day and we will arrange.
those biologically female that are overseas are welcome to fly back to me us(airfare will not be sponsored thou)
everyone please to make a point to come and meet before we have another outing with the hairless guys
and we need pple to make a substantial dent to annie yong's wealth
to avenge for the canteen uncles and aunties
ok thats all fom me for now!
my last day of exam is 29 and 26 for loser
so find us after ur exams to play k!

meanwhile, study hard and never lose hope pple!

Monster Chua Xin Qian
President of AYFC
Mata Scholar
Her Beloved Student
2SB5'07 Class Monster

haha just felt like writing

GG

2008-11-06T02:37:00.003+08:00

GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG GG

GGmonster

2008-11-01T03:04:00.002+08:00

today i teared twice rather yesterday(31 oct)
once in my heart, once on my face

on 30 oct 2340, my roommate came in with a rough paper made party hat and throw it to me.
next i knew, all my friends bursted into my room singing happy birthday with a tub of ben & jerry as a cake with a candle on it
i was extremely surprised cum touched
sang the song loudly
i rushed to close the door to keep the noise in
i am extremely low profile in raffles one,din want to attract attention
i said its not 31 oct yet, they dun want to break the rule of making noise after 12.
ya rite
nevertheless, i accepted the 'cake', blew the candle
and started enjoying the 2 tubs of ben & jerry(Cheers got sale for 2 tubs)and talk cock till 12 plus
then my roommate surprised me with a 'hamper' of my fav tibits put in a basket and wrapped
she shared this with one of our mutual friend, another police scholar
this pple i barely knew for 3 months(except my dear wife loser of course)
very touched
thank God for all these friends..
many of them i knew by another friend(since i din go orientation)
and as usual, bullying is my way of maintaining relationship
haha
THANK YOU FOR THE GREAT SURPRISE, PPLE!

31 oct was quite sian
went for dental in the morning
back go to school
went to the singapore flyer with my family
tired
attitude to my mother
why i always like that? why i always so idiotic to my mum? but can't i just control myself! argh
just smsed to apologised..sigh
anw, went back to hall
very stressed about my computing lab
teared
very stressed
is whole week is practically wasted cos evrytime i got free time, i'll be doing the computing lab
3 more weeks to exam
i can't afford such waste of time
teared quite badly
in the end, my friend literally did the whole thing for me
once again, thank you friends!

really, friends are so impt when u are not at home
really blessed with such great friends(including all of u) of mine
who look past all my flaws, ego, bullying and help me in times of need
indeed, a friend in need is a friend indeed.

looking back these 3 mths
most of us started uni with such great gusto and hope
along the way, i believe many of us stumbled and fall
but we have to stand up, brace ourselves and continue going no matter how bad ur situation is
with a pure desrie to excel in our studies to secure a beter future for ourselves
the spirit of tenacity, perservance, fortitude of mind being strongly developed in all of us
perharps that is why they pay us extra bucks for
the never giving up spirit thru out our 12 years of education
perharps

pple never give up on ur dream no matter happens in the process

monster

sleepy

2008-10-22T20:18:00.003+08:00

Yes uni life has been extremely tiring & busy
extremely ^ (infinity) tiring
especially so when u want to do well and care about ur grades
very bad
for every 1/2 break, u will try to do something constructive
and that doesn't include blogging
i'll probably kick myself later after spending 1/2 blogging
so many things to do
so many difficult tutorials to think
so many confusing labs to write
so many lecture notes to read
so many topics to catch up
4 more weeks to final exam but yet im not confidence at all for any of my modules

but still
i will do it
by hook or by crook
i can do it
with God's grace and power
i must do it
with scholarship officer monitoring my grades

I always believe in doing my best and letting Him do the rest.
http://weadoreannieyong.blogspot.com/2008/10/proclaimation-of-faith.html

i need You

monster

1 percent

2008-10-16T05:17:00.004+08:00

14 #include
15 #include
16 #define EPSILON 1.0e-8
17 double a,b;
18
19 /* Declare function prototypes. */
20 void check_roots(double left,double right,double x);
21 void find_roots(double a,double b,double x);
22 double sinc(double x);
23
24 int main(void)
25 {
26 /* Declare variables. */
27 int n, k;
28 double step, left, right,x;
29
30 /* Get user input. */
31 printf("Enter interval limits a, b (a 32 scanf("%lf",&a);
33 scanf("%lf",&b);
34 printf("Enter step size: \n");
35 scanf("%lf",&step);
36
37 /* Check subintervals for roots. */
38 n = ceil((b - a)/step);
39 for (k=0; k<=n-1; k++)
40 {
41 left = a + k*step;
42 if (k == n-1)
43 right = b;
44 else
45 right = left + step;
46 check_roots(left,right,x);
47 }
48 check_roots(b,b,x);
49
50 /* Exit program. */
51 return 0;
52 }
53
54 /*---------------------------------------------------*/
13
14 #include
15 #include
16 #define EPSILON 1.0e-8
17 double a,b;
18
19 /* Declare function prototypes. */
20 void check_roots(double left,double right,double x);
21 void find_roots(double a,double b,double x);
22 double sinc(double x);
23
24 int main(void)
25 {
26 /* Declare variables. */
27 int n, k;
28 double step, left, right,x;
29
30 /* Get user input. */
31 printf("Enter interval limits a, b (a 32 scanf("%lf",&a);
33 scanf("%lf",&b);
34 printf("Enter step size: \n");
35 scanf("%lf",&step);
36
37 /* Check subintervals for roots. */
38 n = ceil((b - a)/step);
39 for (k=0; k<=n-1; k++)
40 {
41 left = a + k*step;
42 if (k == n-1)
43 right = b;
44 else
45 right = left + step;
46 check_roots(left,right,x);
47 }
48 check_roots(b,b,x);
49
50 /* Exit program. */
51 return 0;
52 }
53
54 /*---------------------------------------------------*/
55 /* This function checks a subinterval for a root. */
56
57 void check_roots(double left,double right,double x)
58 {
59 /* Declare variables. */
60 double f_left, f_right;
61
62 /* Evaluate subinterval endpoints and */
63 /* test for roots. */
64 f_left = sinc(left);
65 f_right = sinc(right);
66 if (fabs(f_left) < EPSILON)
67 printf("Root detected at %.12f \n",left);
68 else
69 if (fabs(f_right) < EPSILON)
70 printf("Root detected at %.12f \n",right);
71 else
72 find_roots(a,b,x);
73
74 /* Exit function. */
75 return ;
52 }
53
54 /*---------------------------------------------------*/
55 /* This function checks a subinterval for a root. */
56
57 void check_roots(double left,double right,double x)
58 {
59 /* Declare variables. */
60 double f_left, f_right;
61
62 /* Evaluate subinterval endpoints and */
63 /* test for roots. */
64 f_left = sinc(left);
65 f_right = sinc(right);
66 if (fabs(f_left) < EPSILON)
67 printf("Root detected at %.12f \n",left);
68 else
69 if (fabs(f_right) < EPSILON)
70 printf("Root detected at %.12f \n",right);
71 else
72 find_roots(a,b,x);
73
74 /* Exit function. */
75 return ;
76 }
77 /*---------------------------------------------------*/
78 /* This function finds the roots of a sinc function */
79 /* using Bisection method */
80 void find_roots(double a, double b,double x)
81 {
82 /* Declare variables */
83 double p;
84 p=((a+b)/2);
85 if (fabs(sinc(p))< EPSILON)
86 printf("BRoot detected at %.12f\n",p);
87 else
88 {
89 if (sinc(a)*sinc(p) < 0)
90 {b = p;
91 find_roots(a,b,x);
92 // printf("CRoot detected at %.12f\n",b);
93 }
94
95 else
96 { a = p;
97 find_roots(a,b,x);
98 // printf("ZRoot detected at %.12f\n",a);
99 }
100 }
101 return;
102 }
103 /*---------------------------------------------------*/
104 /* This function evaluates a sinc function. */
105
106 double sinc(double x)
107 {
108 return sin(M_PI*x)/(M_PI*x);
109 }
110 /*---------------------------------------------------*/

i have been doing this shit since 0000hr
and im still not done yet
this is qn 2/4
and this contributes 1% to my final mark

not giving up
that means no sleep again tonight

slogging for 1%
monster

Proclaimation of Faith

2008-10-04T12:16:00.001+08:00

Jeremiah 29:11
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the LORD. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.

Deuteronomy 28:13
If you listen to these commands of the LORD your God that I am giving you today, and if you carefully obey them, the LORD will make you the head and not the tail, and you will always be on top and never at the bottom.

Psalm 32:8
The LORD says, “I will guide you along the BEST pathway for your life. I will advise you and watch over you.

Proverbs 3:5-6
Trust in the LORD with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding.
Seek his will in all you do, and he will direct your path.

Isaiah 41:29-31
He gives power to those who are tired and worn out and strength to the weak.
Even youths will become weak and tired, and young men will give up.
But those who TRUST in the LORD will find new strength. They will soar high on wings like eagles. They will run and not grow weary. They will walk and not faint.

Isaiah 43:2
When you go through deep waters and great trouble, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you.

Isaiah 55:8-9
My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts.

Habakkuk 3:17-19
Even though the fig trees have no blossoms, and there are no grapes on the vines;even though the olive crop fails, and the fields lie empty and barren; even though the flocks die in the fields, and the cattle barns are empty, yet I will rejoice in the LORD! I will be joyful in the God of my salvation! The Sovereign LORD is my strength! He makes me as surefooted as a deer, able to tread upon the heights.

Matthew 11:28-30
Then Jesus said, “Come to me, all of you who are weary and carry heavy burdens, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you. Let me teach you, because I am humble and gentle at heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy to bear, and the burden I give you is light.”

Luke 11:9-10
“And so I tell you, keep on asking, and you will receive what you ask for. Keep on seeking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened to you. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And to everyone who knocks, the door will be opened.

Romans 8:28
And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them.

2 Corinthians 4:8-9
We are pressed on every side by troubles, but we are not crushed and broken. We are perplexed, but we don’t give up and quit. We are hunted down, but never abandoned by God. We get knocked down, but we get up again and keep going.

2 Corinthians 4:18
So we don’t look at the troubles we can see now; rather, we look forward to what we have not yet seen. For the troubles we will soon be gone, but the joy to come will last forever.

2 Corinthians 12:9
Each time He said, “My grace is all you need. My power works best in your weakness.” So now I am glad to boast about my weaknesses, so that the power of Christ can work through me.

Ephesians 3:20
Now glory to God! By his mighty power at work within us, he is ableto accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare ask or hope.

Philippians 4:6
Don’t worry about anything; instead, pray about everything. Tell God what you need, and thank him for all he has done.

Amen
monster

Call me a stupid chao mugger from now on

2008-09-30T18:03:00.002+08:00

yes after going thru 3 mid term papers
i conclude that the next 3.7 years of my life will be tough
damn tough damn terrible

yes i am stupid
yes i am lousy
but i will not give up
i will not allow things to carry on badly
i will not be the lousiest student
i will be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath, blessed in my coming out and coming in
for God knows the plans he has for me, plans for good not evil, to give me a future and a hope
i am a more than conqueror in Christ who brought is the author and finisher of my faith
who brought me to this course and will guide me to excel in it
for God has not give me a spirit of fear but of faith, hope and love
yes
I CAN DO IT
I WILL DO IT
I MUST DO IT
with Jesus Christ my dear Heavenly Father

yes dean's list here i come
with God walking beside me

Amen

monster
stupid chao mugger

Recess Week

2008-09-23T02:46:00.002+08:00

did i mention to u pple that i think annie yong rock and life is tiring?

yup rather random
well not like anyone is reading anyway
despite my damn emo entry 2 months ago
nothing has change
no contact
no other blog entry
nothing
such that we din even go and send chen off
sigh

well i shan't paint such a gloom picture on life
but thats wad im feeling
its like prelims all over again
this time very much uncertain, intensive,short
just need this mid term to see where i stand among my peers/competitors
trying to keep myself at least average
so the next 3.7 years won't be like climbing an up-slope, swimming against current
if im like the bottom, next 3.7 years will terrible
Second upper at least
cos my honours determines my rank and pay
3rd, 2nd lower is inspector
2nd upper, first is assistant superintendent of police
which one sounds nicer u tell me?
3rd, 2nd lower is $2850.00 per mth
2nd upper is $3000.00 per mth
1st is $3254.00 per mth
which one is better?

well.... the world sees ur money, ur position
God differs..

monster

ANNIE YONG ROCK AC

this is what i had been doing for CS1101C...

2008-09-17T21:58:00.004+08:00

1 /*------------------------------------------------------------------*/
2 /*This is a program that allows user to enter the no. of MCs */
3 /*and GP and calculates his CAP. */
4
5 #include
6
7 int main ()
8 {
9 int mc1, mc2, mc3, mc4, mc5, totalmc;
10 float gp1, gp2, gp3, gp4, gp5, CAP;
11 double cap1, cap2, cap3, cap4, cap5;
12
13 printf("\n Enter number of MCs for module 1:");
14 scanf("%i", &mc1);
15 printf("\n Enter GP for module 1:");
16 scanf("%f", &gp1);
17 printf("\n Enter number of MCs for module 2:");
18 scanf("%i", &mc2);
19 printf("\n Enter GP for module 2:");
20 scanf("%f", &gp2);
21 printf("\n Enter number of MCs for module 3:");
22 scanf("%i", &mc3);
23 printf("\n Enter GP for module 3:");
24 scanf("%f", &gp3);
25 printf("\n Enter number of MCs for module 4:");
26 scanf("%i", &mc4);
27 printf("\n Enter GP for module 4:");
28 scanf("%f", &gp4);
29 printf("\n Enter number of MCs for module 5:");
30 scanf("%i", &mc5);
31 printf("\n Enter GP for module 5:");
32 scanf("%f", &gp5);
33
34 totalmc = mc1 + mc2 + mc3 + mc4 + mc5;
35 cap1 = mc1*gp1;
36 cap2 = mc2*gp2;
37 cap3 = mc3*gp3;
38 cap4 = mc4*gp4;
39 cap5 = mc5*gp5;
40 CAP = (cap1 + cap2 + cap3 + cap4 +cap5)/totalmc;
41
42 printf("\nNemo's CAP = %4.2f \n ", CAP);
43
44 if (CAP >= 4.00)
45 printf("\nWell Done, Nemo!\n");
46 if (CAP < 4.00)
47 if (CAP >= 3.00)
48 printf("\nYou can do better than this, Nemo!\n");
49 if (CAP <3)
50 printf("\nNemo! WHAT HAPPENED?\n");
51
52 return 0;
53 }
54
55

1 /**********************************************************************/
2 /* Matric Number: U084463N */
3 /* Userid: u0804463 */
4 /* Lab: 3 */
5 /* Lab Group Number: 3 */
6 /* Lab TA's Name: Lu Zhongwei, Malcolm */
7 /* Lab Session Date: 17 September 2008 */
8 /* Lab Session Time: 1100 - 1200 */
9 /* Title: Lab 3 Question 4 */
10 /* Purpose: To determine carry out prime factorization and */
11 /* print prime factors */
12 /**********************************************************************/
13
14 #include
15
16 int main (void)
17 {
18 /* Declare variables.*/
19 int integer,n=2,remainder;
20
21 /*Prompt user for input.*/
22 printf("\n");
23 printf("Enter an integer (2-2147483647): ");
24 scanf("%i", &integer);
25 printf("\n");
26 printf("%i = ",integer);
27
28 /*Determine prime or composite.*/
29 while(integer>1 && n<=integer)
30 { remainder=integer%n;
31 if (remainder==0)
32 { printf("%i",n);
33 integer=integer/n;
34 if (integer>1)
35 {
36 printf(" * ");
37 }
38
39 }
40 if(remainder!=0)
41 { n++;
42 remainder= integer%n;
43 }
44
45 }
46 printf("\n");
47 /* Exit program. */
48 return 0;
49 }

1 /**********************************************************************/
2 /* Matric Number: U084463N */
3 /* Userid: u0804463 */
4 /* Lab: 3 */
5 /* Lab Group Number: 3 */
6 /* Lab TA's Name: Lu Zhongwei, Malcolm */
7 /* Lab Session Date: 17 September 2008 */
8 /* Lab Session Time: 1100 - 1200 */
9 /* Title: Lab 3 Question 2a */
10 /* Purpose: To help Nemo calculate via user input no. */
11 /* of modules */
12 /**********************************************************************/
13
14
15 #include
16
17 int main (void)
18 {
19
20 //Declare variables
21 int modules_no, modules,mc, sum_mc=0;
22 double gp,sum_mc_gp=0;
23
24 //Prompt user for input
25 printf("Enter number of modules: ");
26 scanf("%i", &modules_no);
27
28 //Print and create loop for MC and GP
29 for (modules=1; modules<= modules_no; modules++)
30 {
31 printf("Enter MC and GP for Module #%i: ",modules);
32 scanf("%i %lf",&mc, &gp);
33 sum_mc += mc;
34 sum_mc_gp += mc*gp;
35 }
36
37 // Print output
38 printf("Number of modules: %i.\n", modules_no);
39 printf("My CAP is %4.2f.\n",(sum_mc_gp/sum_mc));
40 return 0;

i hope u can understand why my msn nic says: uni is detrimental to health

sanity at risk
monster

Hall Life

2008-09-11T11:10:00.002+08:00

hey pple! glad to meet u pple last week!(and ponning 2 lect straight)
especially miss teow shijing aka darkrings girl who put braces!
YEAH im not the only one with metal teeth!

anw i had been really stressed last week, screwing up my life in the process
sleep so late then wake up late for lesson sigh

ok i shall talk about hall life this week
there are definitely pros and cons to one thing
pro of hall
one is definitely away from my mum's nagging
u all know mymum quite wad one rite
two its the accessibility
like i got lect at 12 and im still here
but there are many cons too
hostel is after all not home
u come into the room and see ur bed and table
dun have the at home feeling, still got the at school feeling
so it results in me study daily cos i still got the feeling that im still in school
and the more u study, the more u realized u dun know
causing the magic word STRESS
its sometimes like a prison cell
u see 4 walls and that's it
but glad that me and loser live very near so sometimes can take breaks and go irritate her..
and there are no entertain except for the laptop lor
plus all the hall activities that we need to join to continue staying in nus
im 100% going to move to a residence(no hall activities) next year
so i must do many activities to get as much pts this year so i can enter residences
sigh sigh
uni life is tough and tiring
but im glad that i've heavenly Father who never fails to see me thru my tough times :D

ok i must go bathe before going to class
see u all soon!

monster

University Life

2008-08-27T18:24:00.003+08:00

3 weeks into my 4 years of uni life
i am feeling stressed as u can see on my msn nick
yes i am stressed
cos engine lecturers ain't the most eloquent pple in the world
so u can hardly understand wad they are saying during lect
unless u read up beforehand
that way u can try to decipher thru the lousy language and accent to find the word he's saying
like after u read the notes, u know that when u heard wave pass, its actually wave path
and i did a count on my lecturers/tutors
3 from china
1 from korea (he wear his pants as high as oon hua)
4 from singapore
1 from blangadesh
although there are a few singaporeans, they ain't the most eloquent pple on earth
so reading notes is a necessity
and i hate printing notes myself
must keep going to check the workbin

this week tut started
and im starting to feel the threat from the prc
they seems damn smart (and proud)
always dun need to copy down ans and correct the tutor
so when i have questions, i dun really dare to ask
i know its stupid but i dun want pple to think im so stupid...
sigh
but i finally met some of my course mates
finally pple who won't ask me wad is ISE
cos they are taking it themselves

another reason for me being stressed now is that i feel that i have abused the freedom given to us in uni
the past 2 weeks, i have been quite slack
like playing com the whole day/night
not really paying attention in lect
and no one to check on u
especially me living in hostel, parentless=authority-less
Thank God that i realized that i have abused the freedom
and started catching up mid last week
or else i'll be dead
i need to be as disciplined as during my A's period
but that being said, living is hostel really cuts down a lot of traveling time
and i dun have tv to watch already
so i should have more time to study
plus my average sleeping time is 2 am, for this few days is 4am, latest being 5am
and i wake up around 8-9 am, latest being 12
so i should have more time to study
but i dunno why still like that

wadever it is, im still striving for my first class honours
and dean's list will be a bonus.

but i still take time to things that i need to do
like i made and printed a President Award for Teachers from the President of Singapore Federation of AYFC
and i went back all the way to school to give it to her
she said i looked visibly stressed
must be my complexion
my sister says sleeping late spoils complexion
well not like i have a good complexion to start with
so ya went back to school
din talk to her for very long
anw, i dun think im going back for teacher's day
i want to do things
but i feel like im very ungrateful if i never go back rite?
sigh

ok im going to eat dinner le
i'll most prob blog once a week k

monster

Olympics Silver Medal

2008-08-20T12:51:00.002+08:00

u all know im damn patriotic one
so all can guess that i was damn happy when the singspore flag went up during the olympics medal ceremony
and sure enough, i was very touched and emotional about it
when the singapore IOC member presented the silver medal to team singapore
i was touched again
i could see the joy of both the IOC member and the team
we have finally done it
48 medal-less years after tan howe liang's weightlifting silver in 1960
first medal after our independence
finally
i am extremely glad

as expected, there will be much talk about the originity of the singapore paddlers
saying that the finals were actually china team A vs china team B
i actually do not know where to stand regarding this issue
sure, im glad that we won a medal, our crescent and 5 stars went up
but im also sure that i'll be more glad if they are born singaporeans
doubtlessly, in this global village, labour/talent mobility is very high and its inevitible that small singapore needs foreign talent
but im not very sure that i like the idea of sg gov granting citizenship to pple just because she is good enough to represent us in the olympics and win
for eg, our national hero Feng Tian Wei who contributed significantly during the semis vs south korea is granted citizenship just this year(so that she can represent sg in the olympics?) when she just arrived end last year
i thought pple have to live in singapore for no. of years before PR or citizenship can be granted to them?
it really makes me wonder about the intention of singapore gov
and its totally lower the value of singapore citizenship

on the sideline, i was also taking note of our dear neighbour, malaysia's medal hunt
i was glad that the din get the gold in the man's badminton singles
cos if they dun get, the will be at the same level as singapore cos none of us has gotten an olympics gold yet
i know im evil
but is it wrong to have strong national pride?

anw,i signed my contract yesterday
i am officially a police scholar
my name is on the police website
im getting my money soon!

oh did i mention that i think micheal phelps is damn cool

monster :D

Happy National Day !!!!

2008-08-09T19:40:00.002+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SINGAPORE!
was watching the national day parade
when u are young, u will normally prefer the mass display part of the parade
but when u grow older, the formal parade is more interesting
and indeed, i prefer the formal parade alot more than the mass display part
the uniformed pple are damn cool
so zhai man
then as a reflective person, i was thinking back on singapore's past again
we really came from a minute fishing island to wad we are now
great strong nation
despite us, the normal citizens, complaining everyday about inflation, government, ERP
but we still continued to work hard in our daily lives, work, do our best in our area of concern
and all these helped to bring singapore forward
to all the hubs we are today: education hub, financial hub, biomedical hub, R & D hub etc
great job
many would complain about singaporeans
singlish, kiasu
but the kiasu was the thing that made us strive forward
the don't want to lose spirit make us chiong for wad we want, towards our dreams
singlish makes the singapore culture
the uniquely singapore language is wad make us recognise a fellow singapore overseas, separates us from the many english speaking country
truely Uniquely Singapore
despite we critising the government, we can't deny that the fact that we have been brought from literally nothing to something
:D

in feb this year, other than the president award for teachers
there was also another campaign
for singapore to be on the world edition of monopoly
i went to the website
the results will be out on 29 aug
i'll be awaiting earnestly for it

one day before that, 28 aug is the last day of the olympics 2008
i dunno about u all
but im damn excited about the Beijing Olympics 2008
its the first time that the most prestigious sport event is held in s Chinese country
from 1896, 112 years, 28 olympics it has never been held in a chinese country
Japan was the first asia country to host
twice some more, 1964, 1940
but the 1940 and 1944 olympics din happen due to world war 1/2
seriously wondering wad were the japanese thinking about
got the prestige of hosting the olympics and they go attack pple
real silly
then in 1948,germany and japan wasn't invited to join, soviet union din sent anyone too
anw,korea also hosted before
and now finally a chinese society
im damn proud of that
hopefully this time, we can stop our olympic medal drought for 48 years
last and first was a silver in weightlifting from tan howe liang
such a modern country but our sports arena are ......
hopefully ms li jiawei can win something in her land of origin, for singapore, the country she call her home now
:D

I LOVE SINGAPORE!!:D

monster

Keep in Touch

2008-08-03T01:05:00.004+08:00

as I always exclaim: wow, how times fly
4 months ago, i was still looking for a job
then gotten a job, dreading to got to work daily, looking for forward to my last day on 30 Jun
and now its already 3 Aug
how much i say i look forward to school and now here it is
damn fast
another thing was waiting for scholarship
since j1, i had been secretly plotting for it
and now, here i am
how time flies
i have to say again
this is our last teenage year
and we are only left with 5 months
19 years of our life just went like this
2 years of jc just past like this
looking back those 2 years
we went from
functions to statistics
units & uncertainity to unclear
stoichiometry to transition metals
opportunity cost to globalisation
alwyn pang's magic tricks to laughing at peijoo when she break voice
hating paul chong's lecture to kuna's messy style of lecture
sitting first row at LT 4 to eating at the last row during econs lect
laughing at lok to totally skipping phy lect
christine ng to annie yong (how can i not mention her name in such a post :D)
fierce roberta to laughing about andre with her
孩子，我为什么打你 to 橡胶树
playing bridge to bugging peijoo with maths qns during contact time
void decking to hubing
great,stressful,funny,tired time we had together

negative impressions -> dislike -> acquintance -> classmates -> groupmates -> friends -> comrades -> close friends -> husbands and wives , our relationship went

and soon, it will turn the other way
from close friends to acquintance to a unused contact in our phonebook
IF we don't cherish these friendships we cultivated
and i already see signs of this

the 1 reason i insist on updating this blog and keeping this blog alive is definitely for ay
but the more important reason is because i want a way that we can stay connect to each other
with chen and abhi going overseas and most of us doing different courses
its very hard for us to fulfil the cliche 'keep in touch'
ask urself, how many primary school friends did u say that to and how many of u even have their no. in ur phonebook
for me its zero, none
so u can see that the way i blog is like the way i will talk to u guys
not in one whole paragragh but broken sentences
just write/say what i thought, feel and experienceed
so i hope u guys will also treat this blog as a aveune for us to know what's happening in each other's life (assuming u are interested), as compared to individual blogs
and also tell others about ur thoughts, emotions and experiences

so i hope u gals will come visit and post in this blog regularly
once a week, fortnightly, monthly
busyness will be there doubtlessly
but if all these friendships really matters to u, u will find the time
for me, its worth it
but it takes 2 hands to clap
i can't be reading my posts everyday

i spent a great 2 years of my time with u pple
i thank u for toleranting my ego, ignoring my insults, laughing at me/my jokes, understanding my stress times, cheering me on for 2.4, having patience with my thing with ay, patronising me when i talk to u during lectures and so much more of my rubbish
i really cherish the friendships we had and hope to have for the rest of our lives
chen,loser,qinwen,grace,mingxi,ruth,shijing,abhi,mel, THANK YOU :D
hopefully 10 years down, we are say with a clear conscience that we 'kept in touch'

Monster Chua Xin Qian
Class Monster

......

2008-07-30T15:57:00.003+08:00

had been slacking at home this few days
or rather procastinating
actually i got a few things to do
like moving things into my room
buying things for my new home ourside home
reading up on my modules
like loser did
she started reading the textbook and doing tutorial for her sem 1 modules long ago
sigh

went for engine welcome tea on mon
pretty informative
and found out that we dun have to bid at all
sem 1 yr1 engine students have all pre-allocated modules
so we dun have to bid AT ALL
im actually very glad
u all know i'll get damn stress over such things one
i was already damn stress that i couldn't get into a e-form for us to choose our tutorial day
very glad

went back to ac to change my sgc
found that its not peijoo's fault
peijoo submitted correctly but moe screwed up
since uncertain whether i have to pay the 10 bucks
met blackie,grace and mingxi
talked damn long
while waiting for annie to finish her national day concert rehearsal
but they din get a chance to talk to her
she was rushing off after a long day
need some quiet moments
and with me around, she won't get it
but the talk with the 3 other lesbian was good
seriously haven't met them for a while
miss school badly

yesterday, tuesday
something huge happened
a water pipe outside my house bursted
awaken by the water sound
couldn't wash my hands cos no water came out of the tap
went another toilet then got water
din bother about it
until my mum woke up and realized that the water supply had been cut off due to the burst pipe
she went next door and realized that only 2 of us dun have water
the next door auntie was washing her hair when the water stopped
haha imagine that sight
she used mineral to wash the soap off
my mum went mad after that
im k with not having water for a day, been thru camps that u hardly bathe properly for a few days, feeling sticky daily
but my mum is a total cleaniness freak
she literally take hours to bathe, cleaning the toilet thoroughly everytime
she dun go to the toilet outside unless its some hotel
she rather hold her bladder.. bad for health
so she went mad
called the town council, show her temper
long story
then she called them the nth time around 4pm and found out that the thing was done long ago but the contractor din on the tap to our house
furious she went
blahblah

i decide not to start a looking back entry now cos it will take a long time
and i want to watch tv at 5
but will definitely write one before we all officially start(many started already) our busy uni life
with my new laptop probably
got tons of things to look back for this past months
ok im getting emo and into my reflective nature again
sigh time seems to fly faster than the speed of light (specially for ruth:300 000 000m/s)

emo monster

2008-07-25T20:45:00.002+08:00

ok sorry for the mini hiberating
must give u all time to read the looooooooooooooooong entry wad

anw, some things had happened in the past weeks
like today, i had the scholarship award ceremony
shook hands with mr wong kan seng, deputy prime minister and minister for home affairs
during tea reception, we were signalled to crowd around him to introduce ourselves to him
we said our name, then he asked us why we want to join the force
talked abit about mas selamat
its pretty interesting to hear it from the minster himself
but i din like the fact that we were signalled to crowd around him, like some social event, meeting impt pple
then had some minimum cam-whore time
can u imagine me being a camhore?
haha
but we are seriously damn minimum
just took some group photos, informal actions

had an ecp outing with the scholars on tuesday
quite fun la... nice pple
these friends are life friends, career friends
since we are going to work together next time
not that u all are not worthy friends but these pple are pple who will definitely meet 4 years later for the 9 months training

i think i won't be going for the hall orientation
cos engine oweek is from 2-8 aug
so i emailed the raffles hall pple that i will only be going for hall orientation for 1 week from 28 jul-1 aug and requested to only pay half of the $160
but they say cannot, must pay full
like wad the heck right?
i asked many pple
seniors say that there's no such thing as compulsory in nus
ogmate staying in raffles hall won't be going for the orientation
and i think course orientation is better cos they can give specific ans to questions on module as there wll definitely be seniors from the exact same course
unlike hall orientation that can only give u cross faculties talk
so yup going for engine oweek
and having a risk to make things ugly with my hall pple
but i can have the best of both worlds, can i?

thursday, went back to ac to collect sgc
and there is a repeated para in my sgc
like wad the shit man
its definitely peijoo's error but the office guy says the form teacher would have discuss with the student
im so sure that peijoo discussed with us
ARGH! i seriously i can't stand irresponsible pple like peijoo can
one shit attitude person can just cost my 10 bucks
i will have to pay 10 bucks if i want to change it
should i? both the office guy and annieyong says no one reads the sgc one
but still, hate imperfect things, especially when i know its not my fault and when i can do something to turn the thing perfect....
sigh
10 bucks? should i spend this 10 bucks?
i think i should
but i feel damn pissed that im paying for stupid peijoo's mistake
ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH ARGH
PEIJOO U SUCK!
U CAN YOURSELF A SCHOLAR!!!!!
DEGRADE THE WORD SCHOLAR!!!!!!!!!!!
no wonder annie yong has not been called for interview for president award
we can see the efficiency of the organisation by seeing who they call their scholars!!!!!
still pretty upset that annie yong have not been called for an interview yet

ARGH! ok im spending the 10 bucks
going back to school again next week
pissed by peijoo

monster
annie lover
peijoo hater

updates

2008-07-16T13:25:00.006+08:00

finally have time to settle down and blog about wad happened these 2 weeks

on 10/7 thursday, just before the slumber party
i received a call from my scholarship officer
and she told me that i has yet to receive the forms like scholar's particulars form, family members form, sureties form etc..
i was shock
i mailed all the forms out last last friday on 4 jul just before i went for diving
damn, i thought to myself
so politely, i offered to call singpost and try to find the forms back
while she will email me the soft copies of the forms
after the call, i called my mum and ask her to help me call singpost etc
of course she scolded me blahblah
then i said i'll settle myself
but she still helped me call them
u can imagine wad a slumber party i had with such a terrible burden in my chest
the next morning, i received a call from singpost asking me wad is the exact address i wrote and whether i wrote the correct add
'WAD THE HELL! how on earth do i rmb whether i wrote correctly or not? how am i supposed to rmb the exact add that i wrote on the envelope?!' i thought
of course, i politely said that i dun rmb and im outside so i dun have the add at hand
the guy was quite nice also la
he said that he's not trying to push responsiblity but singpost losing mail is very rare and he offered to go to the lost and found and find and he will call back the next day.
the call i received was from my mum asking me whether the singpost person called me
then i said rudely that why on hell u ask him to call me when im having camp outside and of course can't rmb the add...
then she blahblahblah me
saying that i should have photocopy all the forms before i send, should have write a return add, ask me wad's the deadline for the forms(come out lah! duh its ASAP lah, wad deadline) etc
'wad lao! now its easy for u to say that la! im so sure u photocopy every single mail u mail out!bloody hell' i thought to myself
then i asked her whether she photocopied every single mail she mail out
she said no but such impt mails, she would have done so
yaya wadever
then we ended off her putting down the phone on me
sigh
i already i had several heated arguement with her about this scholarship shit
but why can't she be more understanding
i really feel terrible for losing those stupid forms and she's adding oil
to her im always stupid, ignorant
and she's the been-thru-life and know everything woman
ok back to the story
the singpost person call me on sat and told me he can't find but he will keep a look out till this fri
thanks singpost anw
so i have to print out all the forms and fill them up again lor

then friday, break camp, went vivo eat carls' jr
din join them for movie
when home, relax abit after stressful shit
amazingly, my mum din throw daggers at me anymore when she came home
well we are a family la
no matter how much disagreement we have, we are still each others' closest human being
cherish your family everyone!
sat and sun was busy with church as usual
just love serving

monday
printed ut all the forms, filled up the total 20 pages form again
ask parents for their ic, income tax proof etc
then went dental appointment
my appointment was cancelled cos my dentist was sick
but they din inform me so they had another doc to see me
this is already the 2nd time they cancel without telling me le
after that i went to the ministry of home affairs at novena to personally deliver all my forms
the scholarship person also ask me to being photocopies of all my studies cert, cca cert, testi for her to verify
so when she was checking whether i add another A to my certs,
(anw i think its stupid to fake results, it undermines integrity and its like throwing the scholarship away)
while she was checking, i chatted with her abit
and knew that many scholars din get hall and most prob will be posted to raffles
and there's a new scholar by the name of sabrina
YES! so im not the latest!- i thought
then i went home

tuesday, woke up at 11 plus
had this gut feeling that this sabrina is the sab that i know so i read her blog and it confirmed my feeling
so i smsed her
and indeed she's the one
she WAS one of my beter np friends in sec sch
but after jc, we become less close
she went nj and will be taking law in nus
she results ain't as good as mine (A AABB)but law just sonuds nicer than engine
not fair
her gp A let her get into law(just in case u are wondering, i din even apply for law)
she's always deem to be abit better than me in sec sch
in studies and cca
she's in 1st class, me second. her position in np higher than me
then she went nj, so i seems to be lousy (she got 9 i got 10 pts)
now i thought i finally beat her
but now..
plus her law seems better than my engine
wah never knew that im so competitive
i am competitive
but u dun harm pple using underhand methods
and this competitive spirit is a type of motivation(cross reference to me competing with my sis story)

the after thinking about all this, i sort out the nomination for annieyong for the inspiring award for english teachers
dun worry, i din fake all your address signature
i sent out my own nomination but included all your essays for president award cos they say we can include thank you msg, newspaper articles
if u really feel offended by me sending ur essays out, i sincerely apologise
i used the exact same essays as for president cos i was lazy to extract out parts to fit the award
but i wrote a short note about the well-acclaimed Straits Times(the presenter ofthe award)has the capiblity to not only recognize teachers who are passionate, innovative and role models in english but teachers who are passionate in imparting moral values and role models in character
hopefully, i sounded polite enough so that they will read pass the 500th word (word limit is 500)

anw, i went back to ac on thursday cos i had the psc situational judgement test at civil service college which is very near ac
the test is a shit one
cos we are just guinea pigs to do the test to see whether the test is good
so that it might be used for future scholarship applications
then went back sch
saw the inspiring teacher poster
saw the chinese teachers
played with them for a long while
followed them to sports complex to set up the things for chinese oral
and mr sim is damn SLIM and TAN now!
really can see the difference
they said he exercised alot to slim down
his pants like going drop
he must have enough of them calling him fatty sim
then when the chinese teachers heard that i got the police scholarship
they sak me wad area am i going to go so they can move there and chit chat with me after they retire at the police station everyday! haha funny chinese teachers
i bet they miss talking to me, the very few ac students who cab speak proper mandarin
then they had go for chinese oral, left me alone
then i saw peijoo
she say that she heard at the door that the chinese teachers said im wasting their time
then she sak me wad do i need from them?
i said: wah i must need something from the school then i come back isit? im not as practical as u lor?
then i said wadever and walked away
really can't stand peijoo k
disgrace the word scholar can
anw, needless to say, i went to look for annie
can't find her in the first level staff room, after clicking her face many times
then the chinese teachers said she's at the 2nd level already
wow she is literally and figurative being promoted can
she's not at her desk
so i loiter around the lobby
saw my crescent juniors
she was coping something ffrom some earth week poster into a book
at that moment, i knew her gp teacher was annie
indeed she is
oh man, fate wants me to meet annie
we talked awhile about ay
they said that she's very good also
shocked to heard that zero from our class got A
volunteered to nominate her for the inspiring teacher
then i crashed their gp lesson! so fun
annie said she was shocked not surprised to see me ... so sad:(
anw, this class is quite guai la
there were many moments during the lesson that i can imagine our class evolving into a uproar about some really irrelvant, out of the pt stuff
but they din
the lesson ended, annie told me that she has a meeting in 15 mins time
but she say we can talk awhile at the canteen
so we talked briefly, saying that she was thinking about us the other day
i toldher about the class being guai
but she said that although they are guai, they are very much less innovative
like they are guai such that they study whether they are told to study but won't go and think and find out themselves
and also because they are guai, she push them alot less than us
she also saw a declining trend in students' gp standards thru these years
and the school discourage tutor based lessons like the sat mock exams we had.. so they dun have mock
then i scolded her for notputting sb5 photo on her desk
she say i never send her
so i did yesterday
we ended our very short talk and she say its pleasant seeing me ok!
so i'll most prob go back and crash once more
ruth interested?

back to yesterday
after mailing the nomination form, i went to help my sec4 church friend with a maths
i think her condition is quite bad
2.5 mths to o's, 5 weeks to prelims
her school just finished amaths syllabus
and the sch stupidly have this adam khoo motivational camp from today(16/7) to fri(18/7)
its from 0800 to 2130
that means no school
how dumb can the school be to allow students to miss 3 days of sch at this critical period
they say the students will be motivated to study after the camp
ya and u need to waste 3 days to spur yourself up to study
wad a dumb sch
that explains the condition of the students
wait until fabiola hears this
i should have started helping her long ago
maybe it will be much better
so i spent 1.5 hours last midnight to write out the worked solutions for one of her past year prelim papers
not that im trying to boast, the prelim paper is really quite simple
i dun think its because im a A level student but the questions are not very tricky as i rmbed from my amaths prelims
but thru my interaction with my church friend,she's really quite weak
i feel so bad for not helping her long ago
all this 7 mths, i have been thinking for myself only and had not really put action into helping them although offering to do so
sigh
repent
anw,i'll write all the worked solutions out for all her papers
and i will definitely help her till o's even after i start sch

today
woke up early to get a headstart instead of sleeping half the day away
did the online pre-registration thingy
got an email from raffles hall
Dear Freshmen,

Welcome to Raffles Hall.

You have been offered a double room.

You can start checking-in to Raffles Hall from Tuesday 22 July 2008 - Friday 25 July 2008 9am to 5pm. Meals are not provided until Orientation starts from 28 July 2008.

We will not be collecting the $450 room deposit to smoothen the checking-in process. We will be collecting Hall fees in full some time in the mid of August.

Please bring along 2 passport-size photographs when you check-in.

Attached are welcome letters from Raffles Hall and the Raffles Hall Orientation Committee. Please read through carefully.

Thank you.

info from the attached letters:
Orientation Charges
Orientation Activities: $60
Freshman Package: $19
Orientation Meals: $81
• The Orientation Camp Price covers all activities held from the 28th July – 8th
August 2008.
• Orientation Meals will cover meals from Tea on 28th July till Dinner on 10th
August 2008, with a few meals being excluded purposefully due to the nature of
the allocated programs.
• The charges for orientation are compulsory for all freshmen. Please note that
the charges are not inclusive of GSt
You may choose your own room-mate, who must be of the same gender as you and
who must also be a successful applicant to Raffles Hall, should someone you know is
also coming here.
You can inform the JCRC President (Junior Common Room Committee) Lee Sing
Yee at u0504857@nus.edu.sg of your request to share a room with your intended
room mate before you check-in. This is to help us to allocate you two in the same
room more successfully, if an empty double room is available. The earlier you inform
us about your preferred room mate, the higher the chance of you getting a room with
your room mate.
It is also preferable you check-in to Raffles Hall with your room mate.
We have a great demand for rooms from many other students, so if you do not check
in by 5pm 25 July 2008 your place will be given to another student.

firstly i think $160 for orientation is too ex
and i think its ridiculous to make it compulsory for everyone to go for the ex orientation
so i emailed and asked them le
if necessary, the full of integrity me will lie that i'll be going overseas during the orientation period
secondly, im in desperate need to find a room mate
my first choice will definitely be loser who is making an appeal to raffles hall
but im even sure that she had even submitted the appeal anf whether she got in or not
plus she's totally uncontactable cos she's busy with her flag and rag
i know another police scholar who's going nus too
she also wants to go raffles hall
but she didnot get a hall and she's waiting for the nus pple to assign her one
so there's still a chance of me staying with her too
then sab, my sec sch scholar friend got into temesk, so cannot
i know another girl from my og
but we are not that close yet but at least we each other
she's from nursing so i can expect a very clean person

ok this is an extremely long post
crash ac before we start school anyone?

monster

BUSY

2008-07-13T22:26:00.001+08:00

will update u all on wad happened to my scholarship when i settle everything

monster

2008-07-12T18:13:00.001+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You are honest and direct. You tell it like it is.
You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
You have one big dream in your life, and you never lose sight of it.

Guess who I am. You guys should try it too, though i don't think it's very accurate.

http://www.blogthings.com/howdoyouliveyourlifequiz/

2008-07-10T16:14:00.002+08:00

im nominating ay for this
just in case she dun get the president award
can i have ur permission to use your essays for the president award for this?
deadline is 17 july

president of ayfc

2008-07-04T16:04:00.003+08:00

amazingly i was 'selected' (as they put it) for the language preparation programme for french in nus
this programme will eventually lead to a student exchange programme in french speaking country like france or switzerland
the extremely weird thing is that ruth applied too but she din get it
i seriously have no intention of boasting here
but its really weird that she din get it but i got
maybe its because we have a write an essay about why we want to go for exchange programme in this countries
and i am a better crapper than her
i wrote some real cliche thing about wanting to experience, immerse into their culture blahblahblah
and i said that i went for a 13-days beijing immersion in jc and would love to have an immersion for a longer period of time blahblah
i think its was this part that got me in
i wrote as if i am really extremely interested in going
which isn't exactly fake
i really want to go for some exchange programme or another
especially since its sponsored (airfare and allowance) by the government
and country bumpkin me haven't gone to europe before (poor me)
but im worried about attending lectures/tuts in french/german
and whether i'll be able to find uni with modules that fits my course
cos for all student exchange programme, students have to find a uni that has modules that can fulfil their faculty requirements so that they can transfer the grades they got over there to NUS grades(CAP)...
and at the same time meet the module credits required
plus my course, industrial and system engine seems to be a rare course
so im worried that i cannot find a uni that have the modules i need
so yup i haven't accept or decline the offer yet
but i sent an email to nus to raise my concerns le

ok i got to go!

THIS BLOG WILL BE HIBERNATING TEMPORARILY DUE TO DIVING TRIP AND NUS UNION CAMP

Monster Chua
President of AYFC

scuba diving

2008-07-02T15:18:00.004+08:00

yesterday, we all had our first scuba diving experience
firstly, i must apologise for being so late. Sorry!
i had to queue and buy anew ezlink card
and they took my cute photo ezlink card!!

anw, i thought thebest part of yesterday's lesson was the swimming around part
except for the part when i was floating so high while u all are below me
I am ABOVE u all haha
felt so free and relax
like dun have to come to the surface to catch your breathe
like a fish..
if i can be a fish, i want to be a stingray
nice to eat, unique(horizontally long)shape, cool tail behind, slim, easy to eat too cos the bones are all in one row!
that's the reason i like stingsting, lazy me find it the easiest fish to eat
the mouth of stingsting is pretty special too!
i went to search for images of stingsting!

OH MAN! this stingray is as cute as me!
haha im really digressing into rubbish now
im looking forward to more swiming around other then doing the skills
out of all the skills, i think the mask clearing is the hardest
cos i dun like to close my eyes
like u lose ur sense of direction,assurance in a unfamilar(underwater)environment is all gone
its alot to do with the mind over heart
u know in ur mind that u are safe but ur heart always dun trust wad u think
its like sitting a roller coaster
u mind tells u that u will be 95% safe(accidents do happen) but ur heart is still abit scared
its rational thoughts vs emotions and feelings
haha i managed to say some big theory out of mask clearing
*cough* scholar instinct *cough*

haha
anw, im looking forward to union camp
was looking at the union camp website
saw my og poster

looks like i have a pretty retarded og
i love retarded ogs
we can all do stupid things together
and usually this ogls are less 'cool' like they won't be involved in talking to their friends
eg of 'cool' ogls are my ac ogls
totally left us to 1 nicer ogl and they went bitching with friends
so yup looking forward to union camp
and i saw my ogl names and realized that some of them are my sis' friends cos they are in the open house committee
so i can pull strings
i also dunno pull strings for wad la
and they just sms me that its a MUST to bring pajamas
they say just buy a cheap one if u dun have
RUTH, QINWEN! are u all going to buy?

monster

2008-07-01T14:18:00.002+08:00

i am currently under a tinly little bit of stress
i have like tons of things to do for the scholarship
and its especially urgent since i'll disappear into thin air from fri to sun and the whole of next week is union camp
and i have PSC Situational Judgement Test (SJT) EXERCISE - MHA SCHOLARS‏ thingy on 10 jul 10am to 11.45am
which means i'll leave the camp on the fourth night and i'll miss the most touching last day
sigh
i'll have to make an appointment with Raffles Medical Group Ltd for a medical check up by this week
i have have to submit the following forms to the home team scholarship board asap
Copy of Letter of Acceptance;
Scholar’s Particulars Form;
Family Particulars Form;
University Placement Letter
Sureties’ Particulars Forms (applicable to nominees who are proceeding for studies in the current year)

but the problem now is that i have receive these forms which are stucked in some post office waiting to be delivered to my mail box.
so currently i can't do anything
assuming i get these forms by tmr, i only have 2 days to do everything
and my mother will scold me for being very last min and wanting things (like their income tax info) immediately
plus i believe i have to write those media release that i talked about when i reveived the forms

anw i got into raffles hall
im still wondering whether im going to accept the offer or not
hear somethings about raffles hall
sister:
ok la, the most accessible hall to the outside world.
near to busstop will 96 which goes to clementi mrt
raffles hall got malaysians, PRC
unknown nus og councilor:
raffles hall the oldest hall among all halls. but heard that pple there is good
(defintion of good?)
loser huang:
very very very dirty
got insects on wall while sleeping
toilet very dirty

so im at a cross road now
wise advices please

and i got another thing to think for hostel
i was informed that the hostel sponsorship comes in the form of lump sum
like they give u $60 per week for the halls, if ur halls fee extends, u pay urself
the rate $60 per week is for last year, i believe its going to increase this year since hostel fees have increased
last year, for raffles, single is $60, double is $40
this year, single $75, double $50
so i might stay in single bed
assuming that i stay in single bed,
assuming the hostel allowance remains at $60, i'll have to pay $525 per year myself
which is acceptable since i have $6000 per year
assuming the hostel allowance increase to $65, i'll have to pay $350 per year myself
assuming the hostel allowance increase to $70, i'll have to pay $175 per year myself
i think all this amount is acceptable since i have $6000 per year
but i haven't include the meals
i dunno whether the $60 includes the meals
so its abit messy

happily stressed
monster

this is so right

2008-06-30T17:16:00.001+08:00

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.

You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.

You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.

Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How Do You Live Your Life?

Info on our diving location, Pulau Aur

2008-06-30T14:43:00.010+08:00

i did some research on pulau aur

Malaysia has many tropical islands with white sandy beaches and clear blue waters. Offshore, 67km east of Mersing, Pulau Aur, is such a tropical paradise.
The tropical waters of Malaysia offer some of the world's best scuba diving. This is a place endowed with some of the sport's best possibilities: you can dive with whale sharks, hover around immense coral gardens and walls, or dive on ominous and hulking shipwrecks.
The population is spread along the coastline in small kampongs of four to six buildings. There are no roads or vehicles. The main industries of the island are fishing and supporting the few dive resorts on the island. The island is surrounded by warm crystal clear seas teaming with life

above photo taken from one of the resort chalets

The main kampung on Aur is Kampung Teluk Berhala.There's a school, a police station, a small surau, a balai raya and a jetty there.
There's also the friendly Makcik Fatimah who owns the only grocery store in the village. It may be small but it is well-stocked. There's also the only public telephone on the island, solar powered and accepts only telephone cards. According to the locals the telephone is unreliable.

above pic: diving resorts on pulau aur

above pic: kampong on pulau aur

erm.. it seems like we have to bring our own snacks there..

April to June are the best months for diving with clear and calm waters

There is no dive center on the island. All dive trips must be pre-arranged. The packages usually include land transfers from Singapore to the jetty in Mersing, boat transfer to resort on Pulau Aur, 6 dives and full board. Packages are available from most dive operators in Singapore.

The boat ride from Mersing takes about 4 1/2 hrs and can be long. Some operators opt to leave at night so you make it into an overnight trip and get there the next morning.

beautiful pulau aur

pics of fishes taken underwater of pulau aur

below are just some pics of pulau aur
pictures speak a thousand words

chalet
dun worry
look at the right of the pic
there's aircon

eating place

really clear waters they have

monster

2008-06-29T21:35:00.002+08:00

i just finished watching the chronicles of narnia: the lion, the witch and the wardrobe
and i actually cried
i only started watching the show at 8 while it started at 645
i cried at the part where the lion called the witch into the tent to negotiate with the witch when the witch wanted the life of edmund(one of the traitors cos its tradition that the witch will have the blood of the traitor)
after a long while, both came out
and the witch to have declared to be not after the blood of any more sons of Adam
then at night, the lion when to the witch's camp
so 'turn himself in' to the witch
he had made himself a scarifice for sons of Adam
the witch's pple mocked at him, saying 'little cat, do u want your milk?'
they tie him up and shaved off his fur
(the witch later use the fur to make some coat)
and she killed the lion
ruth, loser, doesn't this story sounds familar?
sure enough, the lion regain life again in his majesty
he went to help his pple at war with the witch
and he literally breathe life into those who had died in the war
then after the witch is defeated, the lion said 'it is finished'
that was Jesus' last sentence on the cross

i knew that in the story
lion=God and witch=devil
and once again i am reminded of His Love for us

monster

HUS Scholars' Orientation Programme

2008-06-27T12:09:00.002+08:00

its a 9-5, 3 day course
content includes body language, leadership, perconality, proactiveness, listening
interpersonal relationship, team etc
although its seems like alot have to be covered
its surprisingly not that boring
cos they got some really interesting and thought-provoking activities in btw
so its overall pretty good

pple are nice
generally outspoken, confident about themselves (duh)
the guys are 2 years older than us by the way
but there are definitely a few more outstanding ones
like more vocal
of course some can seem abit overbearing sometimes, like very aggressive, very firm on their stand and not listening to others
but generally, its ok
there's this rj guy who is like damn enthu about spf
even more than me can
he's having an attachment in spf strategic planning division
after he end his ns last nov
so he got lotsa of insights from the spf
he's really enthu, can come out with all those cliche catch phrases
potential policy maker
i can totally imagine him in parliament or appearing on crime watch
he applied for spf overseas scholarship but din get it..
so sad for him
anw in a group of 'scholars', its pretty enjoyable
cos everyone is a leader in some way
so pple takes initiative, no bitches, all very sporting
so its pretty good la
u won't be the only weirdo who is all excited when the rest are staring at u
and its really good la, the orientation/course
cos we can know and keep contact with each other
so when we meet 4 years later for the 9 mths officer training
we won't feel so foreign
we name ourselves 'those who sold their souls'
haha its true wad, selling 8/10 years of our life for money
so yup
and among the 13 of us
2 is from civil defence, 1 prison, 1 CNB(anti-drugs) and 9 police
and there's more for police, those Singapore Police Force Overseas Scholarship pple din even join us.. they have an orientation of their own
so its seems like the prestige of the police scholarship is much lower
but who cares man
we got it because we are all good
and among the 13
1 taking political science in cambridge
1 taking chem engine in some uk uni
1 taking electrical engine in imperial
2 taking chem engine in imperial
1 taking geog in nus(OMGOODNESS RUTH'S BREED!)
1 taking double d econs in mechnical engine in nus
1 taking mechnical engine in nus
1 taking industrial and systems engine in nus (THAT"S ME!)
1 taking chem engine in nus
2taking chem engine in ntu
1 taking psychology in ntu
hmmm looking at the no.taking engine
who dares to say engine is a lousy course?
wad happen to SCIENCE, business?
out of 13
2 from hc
3 from rj
2 from vj
1 from ac(THAT's ME)
1 from jj(amazingly she got it, she got the same results as me)
1 from cj
1 from pj(amazing too)
1 from nj
1 from ny
its like the largest variety of jcs ever
when i told one rj guy that i was from ac
he said 'AIYO'
then we all smiled and say that there's this stupid rivalry btw ac and rj
how damn rite

but one thing i dun really like about it is that many of them applied for tons of scholarships from diff organisation
so they ain't really interested in joining the police force one
they just applied for the sake of getting a scholarship, any scholarship
unlike me who have my heart on one and only one
so its not very good lor
like their heart, mind and soul ain't really in the force one
they are like saying 'i din chose spf, they chose me'
like they are damn good like that
smart pple have huge ego

the orientation was basically some coures by strategic learning system
one of the trainers have a stroke on the right side 2 years ago
so he can't move his right hand etc
but its pretty amazing la
sharing his stories
like how he learn to write with his left all over again
impressive la..
at such an old age, still working actively
travelling around the world working
having much adventures

oh i heard from them that the scholarship officer will send us some email
and instructions in the email includes:
-writing a media release by answering a question
they wrote some cliche things la
-writing a quote for the media release
i always thought those side column quotes are extracted by the reporter from the whole speech of the interviewee
now i know reporters are so lazy that we have to write ourselves
eg of quotes: i don't regret choosing home team
i don't ask wad can the force do for me but wad i can do for the force
(aka cliche shit)
-then we have to send in all our birth cert, cca recors etc all over again
(troublesome)
-form for medical checkup
-the scholarship ceremony whereby we will like receive the scholarship from some big shot will be held on 25 jun at ministry of national development
heard that there will be reporters
aiyo i very shy one leh
and it might be before we even sign the scholarship contract cos we have to wait for a day when all our sureties are free

i also got a copy of the contract for 2007 scholars
it says that we need to find 2 sureties(witness)
like in case we break the bond, who do they find for the money la
citeria for sureties
-not bankrupt
-aged btw 18-55
-have proof of finanical stability if requested
-gainfully employed, have a salary of min $1000

in the contract, there are like tons of things phrased in the cheem-est, most unnatural(for formality) english
out of all those, i think the most significant one is(rephrased by my ameteur english) that we must report to them for approval if we are to find any job at any point of time
like during school hols, we must ask them beofre we are find part time job etc
there's also another one that says that we have to report to them our school results immediately after we get them
it makes me abit scared la
like my brain is already not at its max now
then we are starting school soon
then in dec, im going to take an exam
and the results have to be submitted to 'authorties'
pretty scary
wad if i dun do well?
will they remove my scholarship?

ok this is a long entry
shall stop soon
despite all these(pressure to perfom and yesterday's entry), i still feel extremely blessed to get it
im still a happy girl

scholar monster chua :P

2008-06-26T20:59:00.002+08:00

i feel abit lousy now
cos i got a feeling that i get my scholarship because someone else rejected the offer
cos everyone seems to have gotten the forms long ago and have done the necessary things already
i just got the acceptance letter on tuesday
and there are signs on the form that shows that mine is like a backup thingy
like the first page(that has my name etc) is printed on a diff type of paper then the 2nd and 3rd page
so maybe they just reprint the first page with my name to replace the other guy's name
and they attached to the 2nd and 3rd page
sigh
nevertheless, i still feel very blessed
at least i got it
and i found out that the results of one of the scholars going overseas are the same as mine
and she din take h3
so my results make go overseas one ok
so yup somewhat comforted

monster

2008-06-24T21:02:00.002+08:00

sometimes, i really dislike(shan't use the word hate) my mother
now that i got the scholarship
she has found another way to put me down
before was not believing that i'll get it
now its about the bond period
i told her that i'll be bonded for 4 years
then she's worried that i may not like the environment or may not be able to handle the stress wadeverwadeverwadever
that i will not be able to quit
and i'll suffer for 4 years
wad an encouraging mother i have man
i have no idea why she dun like the idea of me getting a scholarship
maybe she has gone thru many bad things in life that make her so pessimistic
maybe she thinks that im this naive gullible idiot who will make grave mistakes in life
sigh
i personally believe that i have the minimum interpersonal skills to survive in the working world
or at least i think i have the determination, tenacious spirit to complete the bond period even when i detest the working environment
and i believe that my passion and drive for the organisation will not die off so fast
sigh
im still treated as the baby in the family
like a stupid ignorance asshole

Mum, i have grown up and i know wad im doing

monster

ps: i blog about the scholarship orientation after the 3 days on fri
generally, the 'scholars' are very nice and friendly pple

2008-06-23T15:55:00.004+08:00

i forgot wad i wanted to say about loser's answer to my question
so forget it

i know im posting for no one to read
since the only 3 pple reading this blog is off for camps
but nevertheless, i shall just write something to kill time

loser!
i told u that i'll disappear into thin air for 3 days wad
so why bother looking for me?
as for the diving things, qw say that no prior knowledge is required for the theory lesson
so i guess i can just give u the things on 28 which is day of our lesson
but can we meet earlier that day to watch the dvd?
i think we need to return them on the lesson day

qw!
i read your blog and i saw my name
i thank you for the compliment!
but i dun think im like very driven la
i just strive for wad i want
and hor your 'she knows wad she wants and she gets it' makes it sounds like things always goes my way in life
which is not that true k
sure, i get many things by God's grace but i do face disappointments one lor
for eg PW (shan't start again) and GP
so yup
thru this things, i learn to take things to stride
and believe that things happen for a purpose according to God's will

ruth!
ain't u sad that u are leaving your dream workplace?
but never mind
just tell your all colleagues to wait for you and u will be back in 4 years time!
meantime, u can request for more facilites in addition to your pool tables etc
so that when u return in 4 years, everything will be there waiting for u!
and yes! after u end work, there will be finally another person(except for myself) who is not busy
so maybe we are go back and crash lectures!
anyone interested? miss school!

oh and just a mini update on the whereabouts of the lesbians
shijing got into ntu business
grace got into nus fass, maybe u all have already seen her in camp
anyone knows where on earth is long black, mingxi, chen and mel?

oh wad hapened to our debate huh?

anw today is the start of term 3
this time last year, all of us was like getting all geared/stressed/worked up for prelims (at least i was)
and all the teachers started counting down to prelims on week 8
fabiola started giving us 4D numbers
7315, 6315, 5315 etc
1st no.-no. of weeks to prelims
2nd no.-3 weeks of prelims
3rd no.-1 week of rest during sept holidays
4th no.-5 weeks to last day of official school
she never fail to ask us for the no whenever she steps into class and write the no. on the board
stressed me
by today last year, i rmb i was already in my 3rd week of preparations for prelims (started in 3rd week of jun hols)
and i would have already plan my revision schedule
my prelim preparation turn out to be a 2.5 mths thingy
wow so kiasu rite? start to early
early birds get the worm
then for gp, annieyong started breaking us up into our dreadful groups
being brutally honest, i told ay that the group thing 'suck' like mad
yes i used the word 'suck' (apologised for using that word thou)
notice that she drop the group thing in term 4?
oh and we had to go back every alternate weekend for gp mock
sian
but i think i definitely improve our stamina in doing paper 1 and 2 together
i rmb that there were maths topical lectures too
oh and term 3= no more PE! (except for those really unfit guys)
can't rmb anything significant for chem, physics(probably skipped all lectures by then) and econs
wow 1 year passed since then
those were the times when all break time = hub time
those were the times...
PRELIMS
term 3 is when real action begins man
those are just memories to us now

some school update:
ACJC Choir strikes Gold at Slovakia Competition!

The Anglo-Chinese Junior College Choir emerged as the only choir with 3 Gold medals at the 3rd Festa Choralis International Choir Competition in Bratislava, Slovakia.
(28 May to 1 June 2008)
As the only Asian choir at the competition, the ACJC Choir competed alongside choirs from Poland, Great Britain, Czech Republic, Russia and Slovakia in the Mixed Choir (Adult), Youth Choir (up to 19 years old) and Folk Song Categories. In all 3 categories, the ACJC Choir clinched gold medals with top marks and was the only choir in the competition whom the adjudicators accorded a rare perfect score of 100 points.
Dressed in Singapore's ethnic hues and conducted by Mrs Valarie Wilson, the choir competed with a repertoire of Asian choral works and received praise for its "sensitive interpretation", "warm ensemble sound" and "sincere, moving performances".
As the ACJC Choir celebrates its 20th Anniversary this year, its success in Slovakia continues the choir's tradition of international choral excellence in England, Australia, Finland, Sweden, the Netherlands, Czech Republic and Wales.

National Schools ‘A’ Division Bowling Championships 2008

The ACJC Bowling Team competed in the National Schools ‘A’ Division Championships 2008 from 22 April to 3 May and returned triumphant with one of the best results seen in the college’s history. The bowlers’ nerves of steel and sheer determination saw them through this tough competition in which they faced tremendous competition from the other schools. The girls’ team came in overall first runners-up and the boys’ team came in first, bringing back the championship title after a three year hiatus. The bowlers also managed to sweep away many trophies in the singles, doubles, quartet and all events categories.
Boys Singles 1st: Adam Lim (2SA3); Boys Singles 2nd: Tan Chng Kiat (1SB9)
Girls Singles 2nd: Victoria Lim (2SD1); Girls Singles 3rd: Amelia Toh (2AD3)
Boys Doubles 1st: Tan Chng Kiat and Elvin Lin (2SA6)
Boys Doubles 2nd: Javier Yeo (2AA1) and Adam Lim
Girls Doubles 3rd: Victoria Lim and Agnes Lim (1SA8)
Boys Quartet 1st:
Tan Chng Kiat, Elvin Lin, Yap Yong Liang (1SB9) and Colin Wee (1SB9)
Boys Quartet 2nd:
Jeremy Lim (2SB9), Samuel Ng (2SC10), Kenneth Lee (2SB10) and Clifton Teo (2AD4)
Girls Quartet 3rd:
Victoria Lim, Cheryl Ng (1SA9), Agnes Lim and Amelia Toh
Boys All Events 2nd: Tan Chng Kiat; Boys All Events 3rd: Adam Lim
Girls All Events 3rd: Victoria Lim
National Schools ‘A’ Division Master’s Challenge 2008
For the first time ever, the ‘A’ Division Master’s Challenge trophies for both boys and girls went to the ACJC bowlers. Elvin Lin (2SA6) and Victoria Lim (2SD1) emerged as the Boys and Girls ‘A’ Division Master’s Champions respectively. Tan Chng Kiat also clinched the Master’s 1st runner-up for boys while Yap Yong Liang bowled a high game of 253 in the Master’s for boys.

SYF Gold for ACSian Theatre

On the 15th of May this year, ACSian Theatre represented the college in the Singapore Youth Festival Central Judging Competition for Drama with its entry, ‘In Quest of Conscience’. We are glad to announce that the college was awarded Gold for the production .
Adapted from Robert David MacDonald’s play of the same title, it deals with the harrowing incidents of the Holocaust, using the events in the Nazi death camp, Treblinka, as a platform to explore the nature of the human conscience
Using a creatively crafted partnership between the ensemble and the lead actors, ‘In Quest of Conscience’ features a technical combination of vivid lighting and an emblematic soundscape. Together, these bring to life the worlds of the Holocaust and its aftermath of the Nuremberg Trials. Characterized by distinct emotional peaks and troughs, deep pathos and captivating moments of tense silence, the piece unnerved, touched and enriched the hearts and minds of its audience.
ACSian Thaetre gained many priceless memories from this experience and has much cause for thanksgiving. ACSian Theatre is grateful to our teachers-in-charge, Mrs. Geetha Creffield, Ms. Michelle Wong and Ms. Sangeetha Dorairaj for their tireless support, guidance and love. Also deserving of thanks are all who have supported us through the SYF season, and most of all, God, for His constant enabling and blessings.

this are just a few significant ones
im especially happy for choir
really good job and a comeback after their undeserving(as in they deserve better) syf gold last year
and for drama, its actually a drop from gold with honours 2 years ago btw

can we crash school some day?
maybe on 3 jul, day after our pool lesson and 1 day before our diving trip
then u all can take 4 straight days of leave
and we are talk about diving issues
please reply me about this ok!

ok that's all from me today
i'll be going for the scholarship orientation programme from tmr till thurs
so no more entries!
(not like anyone will be reading this entry anw)

monster

2008-06-23T08:32:00.002+08:00

hey hey hey! I'll be leaving for my faculty camp in 10 mins! and as usual, me and vivian are gonna be late. Well, but it's not my fault this time... vivian woke up late! So now I'm waiting for her to reach newton mrt so my mum can send both of us to NUS.

Xin qian: Haha, I know you tried to call me 3 times last night, but I was already half asleep so I was too lazy to pick up your call =p As for the diving manuals, I guess you can only pass it to me on the 28th cos my camp is from the 23rd to the 27th.

Looking forward to SCAMP,
nightmare

RUTH POSTED SOMETHING! WOW

2008-06-20T10:05:00.002+08:00

hey girls!

i finally managed to log in! okay..i'm usually too lazy to post. and i keep forgetting the user and pass. anyway yes, CONGRATS to xinqian! really happy for u!!!
and shujia, great that u had loads of Fun and experienced God there too!
qinwen.. seeya on SAT for scuba diving (havent read the book yet! die!)!

errr as to xinqian's qns... i dunno la.. i think the mango vodka's quite nice. and i really want u guys to try it with APPLE JUICE! i guess we can meet up with the guys too.. hahah yeah i know.. the sms sounded so havoc la.. hahahha sb5 wont really do this kinda thing. but no harm trying once?? i'll make sure the alcohol is diluted well enough... nobody's gonna get drunk! yep so i hope the gathering wont be centered around the alcohol.. but rather, the company!
so far, alot of pple replied that they're not free... pple coming are- qinwen, ruth, edwin, thar er, peng bo.... not all have replied though.. those not coming- mel (she'll be flying to sydney/melbourne with her friends), Abhi (flew to india last night), reuben (not free), Joel (last army section dinner), chih hung, tim (duty!)..

hahah ohmans. i have been 'parentless' for a week or so already... havent seen my parents for ages! (my camps and stuff) they came back from nz last night! but i'll be gone next week again... actually it's quite cool to be home alone with 2 younger brothers! WREAKING HAVOC! going out for movies and dinners... awwww.

ohYEAH, today's kindof my second last day at work. i'm soo gonna miss STB. haha. last day's on 30 june (next next monday) cos i'll be taking somemore leave next week for arts camp. goodness, i've taken 20 days of leave in june? or should i say.. i've only worked for 8 days! anyway boss isn't in today.. she went to m'sia for a family holiday! i think she's the best boss anyone could have... like seriously, you won't meet such nice people next time. and i'm still kinda clueless on my farewell pressies for my colleagues! qinwen said i should get little chocs.. which i would get. but i guess i'll handmake something for them too! (which would take time.. and i'm obviously lacking in that).
hahaha i'm feeling so guilty. cos i'm slacking quite badly now.. i've to finish up drafting my caselets.. but i keep procrastinating! arghs. okay i'll do it after this...

2008-06-20T09:07:00.004+08:00

Hahaha CONGRATULATIONS!!! You’re so cruel okay! You scared me a little when you refused to tell me the outcome at the airport. I was damn freaking worried on the way back and was still denying the possibility that you did not get it. But true enough, YOU GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP! Haha it’s a long journey eh, and God has always remained faithful to you. Anyway, throughout my entire trip in Europe, I witnessed God’s wonderful works. Not only have He granted me and my sister with journey mercy and protection but also valuable experiences and lessons. I will elaborate on them another day. Right now, I’ll just post a short entry and head off to bed… still suffering from motion sickness! And in Europe, it’s supposed to be around 3am.

First things first. xin qian! I can only meet you on sat (which is tmr) to grab the scuba diving stuff from you. Mon till fri is my faculty camp. And can someone spare me from all the homework and studying of the manual. I’m really exhausted from all the overseas trips and I have my advanced theory driving test coming up. As for watching of DVD s, I will try to squeeze in time to watch them.

Secondly, when I quickly scanned through the entries, I gave me the feeling that we’re suppose to purchase our own flippers and whatever you have to wear around your head?

Thirdly, I can answer your physics question! It revolves around Archimedes’ Principle which we’ve learnt in JC :) Less buoyant = smaller uptrust on your body, agree? And in case you forgot what uptrust is, uptrust is the resultant force due to the difference in pressure in the fluid at the top and bottom of the body. And by Archimedes’ Principle, uptrust is equal to the magnitude of the weight of fluid displaced by it. (U=mg) You can also rewrite it as U=pgV, therefore volume of lungs and hence amount of water displaced is directly proportional to the uptrust acting on your body. And cool, I can ask my tutees this question as well.

Lastly, I don’t think I’ll go for the class gathering tmr… it’s too late and the next day I have to wake up early for church. Plus I have so many other things that are unsettled.

Half asleep,
Nightmare

2008-06-19T12:33:00.002+08:00

hey why no one enlighten me?
so sad

i'll disappear into thin air for a special project from fri to sun this week
so dun look forward to my rubbish entries k! :D
and i won't be able to go for the 'chill out' seesion at ruth's house
its pretty weird that we going to chill out drinking alcohol
i have nothing against it
its not illegal, we are all of age
u can call me outdated for all u want
but i just think its rather unusual when i saw the msg
is this part of growing up?
or is it just because we are from the anglo chinese family that its just normal for us to do that?
or we just want use our 'right' to drink just because we are finally 18+?
i really wonder
maybe im just thinking too much
maybe its just that ruth just happen to have mango vodka (sounds like it taste nice)

anw, i'll only resurface into earth on 23 when ruth and qw will go for fass camp and loser goes for albert einstein faculty camp
but LOSER, when u came back on 21 please read my entry on 12 and 13 jun
and can u please think of a way to get the damn diving things from me before 28?
and we need to watch the damn dvd together before 28! i haven't watch it!

ok no more rubbish to crap today!
bye pple!

monster

2008-06-18T11:51:00.002+08:00

i was reading the diving book and i have one question

they say that 'when u exhale, you decrease the volume of your lungs and the amount of water you displace, which makes u you less bouyant'

i understand the less bouyant part
but i can't see the link between decrease in volume of lungs and decrease in amount of water displaced
either i had missed it, i don't see their definiton of water displaced
is the volume of water displaced = to volume of body?
if it is, i dun see how the drop in lung size affect the overall volume of body

can someone please enlighten me?

monster

2008-06-16T13:58:00.004+08:00

Hey!

Additional things about scuba diving.

WHAT TO BRING FOR THEORY LESSON
- One passport size photo of your beautiful face
- the completed form
- Recreational Dive Planner (RDP)
- instr booklet
- Big Manual (if you have questions to ask only)

Complete your knowledge reviews by the first pool session. The theory test will be conducted during the diving trip.

That's about it for now.

2008-06-16T13:27:00.002+08:00

today
both my boss aren't here
that means i have the freefom to do whatever i want
not that i didn't have that when they were here
but when they were, at least i must give them some respect and act abit
but the down side is that i have to take charge of everything
which i know nuts about
that being said, up till now
no one really asked me anything that i don't know yet
not because im very smart
its because they dun bother to ask me
haha

3 weeks before the scuba diving trip
i only touched the book last sat
read abit on the intro and i chuck it aside
i was too sian to settle down and STUDY
a word that has been so distant from me this few months
just lazy
and restless
imagine 2 days after u received the biggest news of your life(getting a scholarship)
how can u possibly sit down and read something?
u will most probably be jumping around for 1 week
my post-'being found suitable for LMS(Police)' sydrome is already very mild
all i do is smile to myself on the train/bus, smile before i got to bed
that's all only wad
and talking about the scholarship
i now faced with a minute problem
i got this orientation programme from 24-26
that means i have to take leave again
that means i only work for 13 days this month
that means i will only get $592(after cpf) this month
wad is very little
my bank account is already at a deficit(in my own sense) after transfer the scuba diving $ to qw
i really wonder where did all my $ go
sigh
anw i am still thinking whether i want to tell my boss to extend my contract to like 18 july
so i got 2 free weeks before i start school
if i do so, i'll only work 1 week more
since 1-6 jul belongs to diving and 7-11 jul belongs to union camp
looking at my bank account, i told myself that im going to work for one more week
but when i drag my feet to work today, i told myself that i won't want to work one extra day here
sigh
ok have decided to work more
$$ makes the world go round
not that im in desperate need of $
i got my 4 years of education paid for anw and i'll get $500 per mth for 4 years (ok ego)
but its still good to save more :)

post-knowing-er-jie-got-a-scholarship situation at home is petty calm
my sis sent her congrats when my mum sms that day
nothing from mummy and daddy
just that they say that now i already so bad attitude(according to their standards anw)
then after i get the scholarship and not have to rely on them, my attitude will be worse blah blah
its true that i can finally get out of the house man
escape from the naggings
i pity my sisters
they have less targets now, so naggings will be more concentrated to them
so ya, nothing else from my parents
i think they dun want to talk about it to be considerate to my elder sis
my sis and i also din talk much about it
just that i ask her about hostel things
life goes on as usual
annie yong's 'the world will continue spinning without you' in place
modified version: the world will not stop and smile when u are so happy with urself'

monster

WAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

2008-06-13T13:10:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO WOOHOO WOOHOO WOOHOO WOOHOO

i am still bloody happy!!!!
:D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D :D
i finally got it! the feeling is extremely good
heart feels extremely settled like a huge rock off my chest
AHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

ok is shall go thru the whole process of how i know the results
icame back from church camp
bathe, then went online
i checked my email and saw a new mail titled : Re:Enquires
then i was puzzled
cos the person already replied me about my enquires on when will we know the results
so withmy sweating palm and trembling right hand,i went to open the mail.

Xin Qian

congrats, you are found suitable for the LMS(Police). The letter of offer will be sent to you next week. Please note that there is an orientation programme for HUS scholars from 24 to 26 Jun 2008 at PSB Learning Academy. Please let me know if you are able to attend the programme?

You can call me at 9******* if you need further clarifications.

Regards
Ms Lim

was wad i saw..
when i saw the 'found suitable part', i was overwhelmed with joy
a smile that came from the bottom of my heart appeared on my plastic surgery face (jaw op)
i was/am extremely overjoyed
EXTREMELY OVERJOYED
i read the mail twice
many things went thru my head
like the pple that i need to inform, the things i'll need do now and the great relief/joy
and of course gratitude to my heavenly Father who made this possible
so i went downstairs to tell my parents
i told them i got a good news and my mum guessed it rite
they said great but din show much emotions
but i know that they are overwhelmed too, pride and asian culture of not praising ur kids made them suppress it
they asked me wad does it entitles me to (sigh money minded)
i told them
she asked me to help her type a msg in her phone(cos i type alot faster than her) so she can tell her whole clan (figuratively)
my mum told me later that my dad is really happy
she can see that he's hiding his smile
i said ya, he dun have to spend $$ on my education and he can boast to his relatives
my mum say dun be like that...
ok so after telling them
i cme back to the com
read the mail a few more times
still couldn't settle down
then i msg my church friends, wrote on this blog, asked qw to read
i also msged annie yong a while later
she said 'WOW! im so happy for u!! Yes i'll tell her (yap wai hin) that u are a mata scholar. hope that my testimonial helped and see that character is wad that counts in the end rite? congrats!'
when i saw the character part, i was thinking : not as if my grades are so terrible that its solely based on character wad... but im not intelligent..
but i told her im extremely happy so dun feel like arguing with u...

then i went on to surf other websites like looking at the application form for nus hostel
but i couldn't concentrate at all
just kept smiling like an idiot to myself
WOOHOO so happy

reflective nature kicks in again as i think back of this whole journey of JC
i did not enter acjc as the best student, just 10 pts, average student
but i had the vision/desire from God(i believe) for the scholarship
the thought started when i was researching about SPF for some NPCC competiton in sec4
so i went into ac being a mediocre student and graduated as one of the better ones
God as indeed make me the head and not the tail
i know from the bottom of my heart that i am not intelligent so i knew that i had to work extra hard to do well and relied on God's strength thru these 2 years
God's grace really
qw went once commented on my church that they are money sucker, i said the money will not just disappear into thin air instead, it will come back to me one day
and i believe this scholarship is only part of the harvest
God is so GOOD to me
so thru-out the 2 years i work diligently
doing my part to make my dream come true
i'll do my best and let God do the rest
then A level came and went
period of waiting came and felt so paralysed of not being able to do anything
there were so many divine open doors
npcc, h3, immersion to improve my cca record, psc psychometric test, home team attachment, being in the really silly ac 'scholars-in-the making programme' taught me about interview skills, then going thru the interview to land myself in the internship that i believe improved my chances alot
writing the psc essay
then my results was a signal of going ahead in the application
waiting and waiting
felt hopeless, wavering faith
got rejected for the psc but got called for the lousy local merit
preparing for interview, doing the extremely long ability and personality tests
the 2 hours long interview
period of waiting and impatience again and finally the results came
thru these times, i thank u all for encouraging me
and my heavenly Father's love and grace seen me thru all these times despite my wavering faith in Him
as u all know, i might not have a great earthly dad but i have an awesome heavenly Dad
the only thing i can say now is 'Thank You, Jesus'
really to God be the glory and
THE BEST IS YET TO BE

haha i feel like im making some speech after my cca win some championship
but its not like its not similar
studies is my cca
this blog recorded my whole successful scholarship application journey
lets not close it man
i'll miss blogging here

now i have to go apply for my hostel
tata!:D

Monster Chua Xin Qian
Local Merit (Police) Scholar :D
President of Singapore Federation of Annie Yong Fan Club
2SB5 Class Monster
God's child

I GOT THE SCHOLARSHIP!

2008-06-12T16:11:00.001+08:00

ok im overwhelmed with emotions now
i'll blog more next time

monster

2008-06-10T19:37:00.002+08:00

i broke my specs yesterday night
and i was actually happy about it
cos that means i can make new specs!
and buy contact lens for the diving trip at the same time
and now im wearing my old full-frame specs
its really weird to keep seeing the lower frame of my specs
im used to the half-frame
my vision feels restricted
it also cause me to have headache
cos my eye is already customed to the previous degree
now have to adjust to another degree
its also blur to see far things

im going for church camp from tmr till fri
dun miss my nonsensical entries!

monster

2008-06-09T15:26:00.005+08:00

i was just reading the general education modules
(u can see that im really excited to start my uni life)
and i saw these few modules that seems really interesting

GEK1508 - Einstein's Universe & Quantum Weirdness
Cross-listing: PC1325
Prerequisites: At least a O level pass in Physics
Preclusions: Students majoring in Physics are not allowed to take this module
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2.5-0.5-0-3-4

haha einstein is too crazy for the rational physics students

GEK1519 - Science of Music
Cross-listing: PC1327
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2.5-0.5-0-3-4
Description: This module aims to introduce students to the science of music. Topics to be covered: acoustics, sound and music; vibrations, frequency and pitch; musical intervals and mathematical ratios; vibrating strings and musical intervals; the construction of musical scales; Just, Pythagorean and Equal Tempered tuning; musical instruments and their waveforms; the harmonic series; harmonics and musical timbre; string and wind instruments; the pianoforte and its technology; the action of grand and upright pianos; automated pianos; electronic music; the MIDI system; MIDI signals; general MIDI and MIDI sequencers; synthesis of musical sounds; additive and subtractive synthesis; FM synthesis; digitization and sampling; digital synthesis of waveforms; digital music reproduction

RUTH SOH, u should take this module! there isn't an exam for this!

GEK1525 - Evaluating Claims Related to Health
Preclusions: To exclude a student who is taking or who has taken any Life Science Module other than a GEM.
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2.5-0-0-2.5-5
Description: To give the students sufficient background knowledge to be able to critically evaluate claims for health benefits of dietary supplements, weight loss regimes, and similar products.

loser should take this..

GEK1530 - Life as a Complex System
Cross-listing: PC1328
Preclusions: Students majoring in Physics are not allowed to take this module
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2.5-0.5-0-3-4
Description: The main objective of the module is to fascinate the students with the concept of interpreting life as a complex system by critically analyzing discoveries from Biology, Physics and Chemistry in a stimulating and unconventional fashion.

life is not complex enough for physics students..

GEK1542 - Forensic Science
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2-1-0-3-4
Description: The module is designed to provide students with general knowledge of a special branch of scientific inquiry and application to questions which are of interest to the legal system as well as social sciences such as archaeology. Experts from law, pharmacy, statistics, Health Sciences Authority and the Police will cover related topics to forensic science. The main topics covered include the introduction to the laboratory set up of the Centre for Forensic Science which handles DNA profiling, testing of body fluids and blood, paternity testing and database information; death investigation by the Centre for Forensic Medicine; hand writing analysis and questioned documents, toxicology and identification of illegal drugs.

OMGOODNESS! I WANT TO TAKE THIS MODULE! REAL LIFE CSI !

GEM1004 - Reason and Persuasion
Cross-listing: PH1101E
Preclusions: PH1101E, PH1102, GEM1004M. Not for students majoring in PH
Workload (lecture, tutorial, lab, project/assignment work, preparative hours) per week: 2-1-0-1-6
Description: We focus on two major philosophers: Plato and Descartes. We also look at two problem areas: science and ethics. Our subtitle - reason and persuasion - indicates a thread that runs throughout, tying the bits together. We begin and end with a question: is it wrong to short-circuit people's capacity to reason by means of clever persuasion techniques? (In other words: is advertising immoral?) The rest of the semester is devoted to the nature of the thing it may or may not be wrong to short-circuit. We will ask how and why it is possible for human beings to reason about the world, i.e. do science.

ok it sounds really cheam...
loser should take to let come across as more persuasive

monster

2008-06-09T14:12:00.004+08:00

i was reading the info about the SEp and i chanced upon this
The criteria for degree classification are:

Honours Degree Classification

First Class Honours
CAP 4.50 and above
and
at least A- in Honours thesis/PROJECT
damn, projects are ruining my life

Second Class Honours, Upper Division
CAP 4.00 – 4.49

Second Class Honours, Lower Division
CAP 3.50 – 3.99

Third Class Honours
CAP 3.20 – 3.49

Pass
CAP 2.00 – 3.19

Fail
Below CAP 2.00

Bachelor’s Degree Classification

Pass with Merit CAP 3.20 and above

Pass
CAP 2.00 – 3.19

Fail Below CAP 2.00

ok its looks pretty scary
and it seems that its extremely hard to get first class
my sis have been getting 3.5-4 all the while

and shit, i just realized that im on a direct honours program
so i must get more than 4
i dun see the value/merit in having a second lower

monster

2008-06-09T12:08:00.003+08:00

for the guardian angel show, wad im really concern is whether he was from ac
cos i'll be really disappointed if any of our principals said those things
and i'll declare that the pe dept are full of idiots
i also disagree with qw about teachers having double standards for treating him differently
he is in fact different from the other students, hence the different treatment is acceptable to me
social issues vocab lesson: affirmative action (which means postive discrimination)
eg: setting aside a percentage of places in uni for minority race(not in s'pore of course)
i dun mean that teachers should condone sleeping
but at least be more understanding if the sleepiness is really a result of his medical condition
like have a doctor's letter to prove that
but knowing jc students(especially ac where almost everyone has a doctor relative), pple can just can those letters like toilet paper
privilege abused

by this time next week, i'll know whether i get the scholarship or not
ok u all must be getting bored and tired of my scholarhip shit
i shall cut the crap
i'll just tell u all once i have the news ok!

i'll only go for student exchange program only if i get the scholarship cos i dun have the money to go for it myself
so when i knew that the deadline for the Language preparation program (which eventually leads to sep) was 6 june
i was even more urgent to know the scholarship results
but i was inform that i won't know it till this week
but when i received the email that the deadline has been divinely extended to this sun, i feel that God is telling me that i'll get the scholarship
like they extended the deadline to wait for me to know the outcome and therefore decide whether i'll be going for the exchange program
and there's a high chance that the result is positive
or else God just let the deadline stay at where it is
it might seems very trivial
but i believe that there is a purpose for everything that's happening
just that we dunno the purpose
so Thank you, God

anw, i'll be going for churach camp from wed-fri
so dun miss my nonsensical entries!

monster

2008-06-09T10:16:00.002+08:00

I can't wait for the camps, diving trip and school to start!

I met up with Jean, our diving instructor last Saturday. Jean has also told me a few things to look out for.

1) Diving manual.
These are ours to keep. Shujia's with xq, ruth's with me. It’s really useful and our theory test will mainly be based on that. There are little yellow triangles with an exclamation marks beside the important points. I stress again, important. There are 5 chapters in total, which means 5 sets of ‘knowledge review’, which can be found at the end of each chapter. We can cut out, photocopy, and scan etc the completed knowledge reviews to her, preferably by the theory lesson with her. And if you still don’t know what this means, it means homework. Good luck.
Knowledge review deadline: Theory lesson

2) Dvds.
We only have 2 dvds to share among the four of us. Currently, I’m holding on to one and xq too. The dvds will take about 3 hours to finish and due to heavy usage, there are some scratches on it. Not recommended for computer use. But a dvd player should be alright.
Return date of dvds: Theory lesson

3) Theory lesson.
What the hell is that theory lesson gonna be about? Mainly, we are gonna do some mathy mathy maths. Calculations such as how long we can dive underwater and how long we need to stay on the surface before our next dive etc will be taught.
There are 2 available dates for this.
There is one on 21st June, 4-6pm, taught by jean. Jean prefers to have at least 2 of us taught by her. I have no idea why.
There is another one on 28th June, 3-6pm, taught by a dive master.
I have no idea why one is 2 hours long while the other one is 3 too. Lol.

4) Pool session
I’m sure you know about the water test. Swim 200m continuously without a time limit and tread water for 10mins. Jean thinks that it is unnecessary to have the test, but she will do so if we have the time. So please bring along your goggles for the pool session.

5) Contact lenses
Both soft and hard lenses can do. There are no powered masks (those with degree).

6) Payment
Please note that the deadline for payment of balance $375 is 16 June, Monday. You can do a cash deposit to their ocbc account. Don’t need an ocbc account or card to do cash deposit. Please sms me when you do.
Deadline for payment: 16 June, Monday

Other interesting facts:
Jean has a son, sec 1 this year named martin. He already has an advanced cert.

--End --

I hope I have communicated everything that Jean has told me in this entry. If you have any doubts and you think that I would have the answer, please feel free to ask me. If not, you all can also ask jean directly through email or something and share with us the answers. Thanks! :D

And as for the My Guardian Angel show, my pj friend told me that the entire episode was filmed in PJ. In the reenactment where he was walking round the school track, some students wearing pjc pe attire ran past.

I cannot blame the PE teacher for making him walk round the track. He’s fat and can’t do vigorous exercise and the best way to shed off his fats is to make him walk. Students with medical conditions are treated the same what, like kr being asked to go gym instead of joining us for games.

I think that there is something wrong with the guy’s character too cos fat people are not discriminated in AC. Most are thought as being very huggable and cute, and give people a sense of security, right shujia? Look at the choir guy. Totally a teddy bear. Haha. When people don’t fit into AC, mainly it’s because the person does things that are not what typical AC students do. Sleeping in classes definitely qualifies the guy as normal and is not frown upon or laughed at by fellow students. I’m sure the teachers have no choice but to scold him for sleeping in lectures for the fear of being accused having double standards.

As for the 'our school will not change, your son has to change' part, I have nothing to say except that the person who said that should go home, stand facing the wall and reflect. (Mian Bi Si Guo) for three days. He really shouldn’t be so insensitive.

That’s all! Ta-ta!

Get well soon, Ruth! :)

2008-06-06T17:40:00.002+08:00

ITS FRIDAY!

yes end of the week is finally here again
that means i have 3 more weeks left in this bloody place
and excluding the 3 days of church camp, 1 dental appointment and 1 day leave
i have only 12 days left here!
yes!
i die also dun want to extend the contract man
since i have decided to go for the union camp, i'll have 3 weeks free before the action begins
3 weeks to rot, pack my room, gear my brain up and store enough hours in my sleep bank before i embark into my 4 years of uni life
obeserving my sis, its normal for uni students stay awake till 3-4 am and wake up at 9 plus
so yup, must store enough sleep first

woohoo! we are going to start school once again in 2 month's time
and we have left jc for 6 mths!
time fly so freaking fast man
still rmb the time when we started jc, we can't wait for A level to end
then it ended, we started of life of relaxing and working, waiting for A level results
then the day came and went, we all were busy making decisions for uni, decisions of Life
then waiting for uni letters and now we are all going to the same uni!!!
time flies really fast
6 mths more to our teenage years
........

haha
i realize that ay is right
i am really quite reflective in nature
like to think back about old times
(i managed to include ay in my entry!)
oh ya, i called up moe and ask them whether they have shortlisted the teachers for the president award
cos i asked ay to tell us if she gets called up for the interview but she haven't
so i got impatient
anw, the customer service person say they dunno about the shortlisted things, they only know about the final result
oh well

and no kind soul sms me and offer to help me check my email
i asked loser huang to check for me
the police pple say they will inform me by next week
wad efficiency huh? i'll improve it when i join the force haha
they have to tell me by next week anw
the application for hostel is till next next monday
they have to give me time to apply for it lor

ok its 1759 hrs now
knocking off!

monster

2008-06-05T10:10:00.005+08:00

good job qinwen!
resist temptation!
u all better not bang seh anyone!!!!

ok today is 5 June 2008
more than 2 weeks after my interview
i got too tired of waiting yesterday
so i sent an email to the scholarship person to ask about when i'll know the results and whether even non-successful candiates will be informed
as u all know, i can't go hotmail
so if any kind souls out there wants to help me check my mail for a reply, pls sms and i'll tell u my password
thank you!!
after i sent the email, i went to the spf website and look look see see
i click the scholars' profile and i saw a list of awardees for 2007
i got the shock of my life
i thought that they have already awarded the scholarship for this year
cos we are the class of 2007
so i thought the awardees for 2007 means its our batch
but i went i scroll down and see, i realized that they are awardees for last year
my heart started beating again
u can ask me how i know that they are last year's awardees
i went to spf website enough times for me to recognize the names and those names were there since last year
so now, im waiting for a reply

i was watching tv yesterday night
and this program was talking about the 'guardian angels' of this diabetic guy
he was saying that in his previous jc, he was discriminated
like during pe, his pe teachers will ask him to walk around the track while others were having swim pe etc
as a diabetic person, he will feel sleepy easily
so when he dozed off during lectures, instead of understanding his condition, the teachers reprimand etc
so his parents bring the issue to the principal, requesting for longer breaks in his timetable etc
but the principal said 'the school will not change, your son has to change'
u must be wondering why im telling u all this
ans: during the reenactment of all these discrimination he went thru, the person was wearing the acjc uniform(without the school badge) and its being filmed in ac(voiddeck, field)
so i thought its just that ac allow them to use the uniform etc
but when he was talking about how his life changed when he got into pjc,
he was also wearing the pjc uniform with the collarpin and all
however, i refused to believe that acjc teachers will treat their students this way
i really dun think that any pe teachers will just make him walk around the track while others were having fun
i can't imagine mrs chan, loo ming yaw or even joel mak saying 'the school will not change, your son has to change'
and im not talking about this really old guy
this guy just got his A's results this year, so it can't be any other principal
so despite my mum saying, 'hey, he's talking about ac', i refused to believe that its ac
and kept telling myself that ac will not treat pple this way
furthermore, if they are really talking about how bad is ac, why would the school allow them to film in ac?
i really hope that im right
wad do u all think?

monster

2008-06-04T15:08:00.001+08:00

Hello my dear friends, I’m sure you would be extremely relieved and gratified that I JUST REJECTED AN OFFER FROM MY AUNT TO SPONSOR 50% OF MY TRAVEL EXPENSES FOR A 11-DAY TRIP TO SAN FRANCISO! WHY? BECAUSE IT CLASHES WITH THE DIVING TRIP! OMG. But don’t worry, although I must admit that it is extremely tempting to bang seh you, I will not.

So, in conclusion, in the event that such an offer comes to you, please do not bang seh too. If not, I will assure you will be getting a cracked skull and I will speak to you no more. Thank you.

As for the reverse bungy, ruth took some photos. Maybe when she comes back, either she or me will blog together with the pictures.